living with an 'invisible - dis'ability'

As I'm Living with Anaphylaxis' to Latex'
proteins' & with many' food' allergies'
asthma' plus 'the chemical' sensitivity'

So now I must Heal everything in me too as this is no way to live a life

   

                                                       SO NOW I AM

                                           " LIVING; AS ALREADY HEALED "                                             

                                       

  

 

                                    FOR WHAT ONE CAN DO ALL CAN DO TOO        

 

   

 

                       SHINING A NEW LIGHT, SEEING ALL AS 'A DIFFERENT PICTURE'                                    

 

                                         

 

                                                   BUILDING NEW BRIDGES    

 

                                                     

 

                                                         FULL OF LOVE            

 

                                                       

                                               

                                                      A NEW KNOWING

                                                BEHIND THE MASK OF LIFE                                      

                          

                                                      

 

                                     Finding back to the middle point of it all

                      From all this pain I received, into a new inner and outer Health.

                                      I will, for I will not stop, to it is achieved

 

                                        

 

                   THEREFORE HERE 'IT ALL' COMES AGAIN, IN MY DIFFERENT WORDS.

                   BEFORE; I GOT THIS HYPERSENSITIVITY, I WAS SO SAD; TO WITNESS

                   WHAT, WE DID; TO EACH OTHER AND TO THIS WORLD; WE LIVE IN.

                   I WAS OFTEN SCORNED; FOR BEING 'TOO RIGHTEOUS' WHEN'EVER I

                   SAW A MISERY; OF FELLOW BEINGS; MISTREATMENT BY ANY POWER.

                   I SAW SO MUCH PAINS AFFLICTED BY THOUGHTLESSNESS IN MY LIFE

                   I WAS TOLD TO JUST LET IT GO. SO MY PAIN WENT INSIDE INSTEAD 

                

                        

                     OF LETTING IT GO; INSTEAD OF LETTING MY TEARS FLOW IN PAIN,

                     LETTING IT ALL FLOW FREELY TO IT HURT NO MORE, AND TO SEE' 

 

                              

                                 IT FOR; WHAT IT TRULY WAS; STRIPPING IT BARE.

                       THIS IS THE ONLY WAY; CHANGE COME ABOUT; DO NOT HIDE;

                  FOR ITS ONLY BY CHANGE; ALL THINGS AROUND, WE CAN RE-CREATE

              

                                         

 

                                GIVING 'IT' A NEW LIFE AND FULL COLORS, TO IT ALL

 

                                                             

 

                FOR ITS ONLY WE, WHO CAN STOP THINGS IN ITS TRACK, TO LIVE A-GAIN

 

                  

 

                 WHEN WE OPEN OURSELVES TO THE GREAT POWER THAT LIVES IN US ALL

 

                                              

 

                 FOR ALL; TO BE SEEN FOR; WHAT IT ALL TRULY IS, SO IT; CAN BE HEALED

 

               

 

                 SEEN  THROUGH THE MINDS EYE SEEN TOGETHER WITH ALL THE DIVINE

 

                   

 

                 WE ARE NEWER LEFT BY THIS POWER IN US IT IS US WHO LEAVE IT BEHIND

                                        

                                                  IF WE; NEVER SEE IT ALL

           

                                                 

 

                    FOR SEE, NOW MY CELLS ARE STILL; ALSO READY, YET THEY'RE CALMED

 

                                              

                                                    SO I CAN BEGIN TO HEAL

 As I have had great help along the way.in this my life I have survived it all and I promise that I

 will as the help did not come from the people who should truly know about all these allergies.

 Yes I know you maybe have read this before, yet I need; to say a proper farewell; to all of this.

 

                      

 

         SO I WILL TELL IT AGAIN TO SAY MY PROPER FAREWELL TO BLESS; AND LET IT GO

                                            LET IT ALL FLY AWAY FOREVER

         I WILL SEE IT DIFFERENT NOW, TO HEAL IT AND TO BURY MY PAIN LET IT ALL GO  

                     

                               

 

   I had never survived was it not for this continuous help I have and I still get so lovingly from

   my Husband, and my Family, they together has helped me, no end. Learned; how to give me

   all the rescue medication, have looked out for dangers when I could not myself, have helped

   no end with; physical and psychological support in my daily life; they are there' for me every

   minute of the day no if and no but. Just there no matter what. I thank them from the bottom

                         of my heart you have given me power to live through this

 

             

 

 

    FOR I CAN STILL TREASURE EVERY DAY AND GET THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE WITH YOU ALL

 

 

                       

 

              you have always cradled me you when I cried and cried, told me to hang' in'

 

 

            

  

                 YOUR LOVE AND PROTECTION GRANTED ME COLORS BACK INTO MY LIFE

 

 

                          

 

 

                               YOUR LOVE GAVE ME BACK; MY NEW INNER POWER!

 

 

      

 

 

      AS I SAW; WHAT REALLY MATTERS; NOT THE LOST, FOR I STILL HAD MY INNER POWER 

 

 

            

 

  I could not have reached this step in my life without all of them I Love them Unconditionally.

 

 

 

        

                ALL IS ALIVE, ALL CAN CHANGE, ALL IS A PART; OF EVERYTHING ELSE.

 

 

              

 

 

                                                IF WE CAN SEE IT OR NOT

 

 

               

 

 

                                THIS POWER THIS ENERGY OF LIFE IS EVERYWHERE 

 

                                                     

                                          YES WHAT WE SUDDENLY CAN SEE  

                                 DID ALWAYS EXIST; ALSO ALL; THE STILL UNSEEN

                                                                ∞

                WHEN WE REALIZE, HOW IT ALL BELONG TOGETHER, YET ALSO A-PART

                WE CAN LET THAT GO, WHICH DO NOT FIT INTO WHAT WE ARE; IN ALL                                                                                                           

                WE CAN TAKE IT UP AND LOOK AT IT FOR THEN TO SAY OUR GOODBYE

                WHEN WE REALIZE, WE ARE MUCH. MUCH MORE THAN WE THINK WE'RE

 

                               

 

 

                                                                NOW 

                                           ABOUT DIS-EASE; THESE CHANGES

                             WE HAVE MADE TO OUR WORLD OUR LIVES OUR FUTURE

 

 

                  

 

 

                   WHEN WE HAVE TO LIVE THROUGH MAN-MADE -DIS'EASES OR DEATH                                      

                                     

 

 

                                AS I SEE IT ALL AND I DO REMIND YOU ONCE MORE.

                         Life; is changed, as sickness take over our world; as it takes all.

                   Remember; when all of this took off, in my life; it was very, very' scary.

              It is also something, that still can reach anyone, as more and more use Latex.

                   This is no trivial dis-ease to cope with, and it comes by so quickly too; 

                         We live our high life; of more, more, faster & faster; as we cry 

                               FOR, NEW CHEMICALS TO BE PRODUCED NONE STOP.

 

                                        

 

                                      ALL I ASK IS FOR YOU NOW TO BE AWARE

         We do/will need a helping hand, we will need protection yet not as a defense of life.

  The protection we all is asking for; by regulations and new laws; which still don't help us all.

         Life needs to be valued; to be a treasure box of care, of love and of a kindness too.

                                       TO; REACH OUT, WITH A HELPING HAND

                                              ...See this; HELP, I received...

                                                            so lovingly

                                                       

                                                            ...IT ALL...

 came from the people living with me every day who experienced all; the different attacks too.

 I didn't survive because we where told the truth from the beginning as that truth where never

 complete. I was helped because we stood firm and asked questions none stop everywhere as

 different facts then came fort we would use so I could survive. A common sense we tried and

 tried it has been such a difficult time, for my family and me without a help, or understanding

 from the Doctors at first; so many other people with anaphylaxis too, has discovered in lives.

 Just told in the beginning to 'get out quickly' whenever I started to get really sick, no care for

 how I managed by myself. Ignorance and fear did cloud their ability, to do all the right things

 as their own survival no blame instinct - won out. A truth is always elusive, or can be hidden

 in all forms of self if we need to preserve our - state of affairs - in life no matter who we are.

 This also often misunderstood. Even if we do see all the facts others view will change it again

 

                               IT ONLY HELPED ME IN ALL OF THIS, IF I KNEW A TRUTH

                     THE TRUTH AS IT TRULY WAS, NEVER HAAD A PART JUST DISMISSED

             NOT LOOKING THE TRUTH STRAIGHT IN THE EYE, AND STILL NOT SEE IT ALL.

 

                          

                 

            A SILENCE OR; OR NO INFORMATION, CAN EASILY MEAN A DEATH FOR SOME

                       ALSO HERE WE SEE THESE SIMILARITIES TO THE HIV/AND AIDS

                                     WHICH TRULY IS THE OPPOSITE END OF THIS.

 

                                       

 

 A Hypersensitivity; any allergy reaction to proteins or chemicals and with asthma thrown into

 this mix do confuse plus as anaphylaxis, include a broad spectrum of all of the reactions too,

 It will all depend so much on our own bodies - at any time - by any amount we are triggered.

 Attacks can happen so very quickly or slow, as anaphylaxis will take any life in just a very few

 minutes or it can be prolonged over hours even days. So these reactions;will not always warn

 anyone of how sick we truly are, as even some doctors; get fooled. If we have the very hoarse

 voice and are missing sounds people do not think that we have a severe throat swelling, even

 our chest tightness or pain is not always picked up if we at he same time cough none stop so

 difficult in breathing is taken for given in such a situation and we are often just offered water.

                                                   CAN'T BREATHE, NO AIR

                                                

                                               TIME, FOR US IS RUNNING OUT

 For we've begun this slide; this allergic slide we do not know when or where it will stop in us.

 Eyes - noses just runs; a funny pulse, or itchy spots that's not seen, because of clothes if we

 then also get agitated because we're fighting for our life - have just been helped; by our own

 body by a huge release of adrenaline our brain and nervous system too is affected. Yes we're

 frightened when we reach this stage for we know how urgent; we need help, yet maybe we're

 not able to tell you just how bad the situation has become for us; if reactions then has come

 about by a food allergy or if its just taking off completely'; we will also begin to vomit and we

 are rendered completely helpless our body is now fighting for survival; shutting us down; we

 will very, very fast need much medication CPR all extremely urgent. So WE do need your help

 

                                                    

 

                                          WE DESPERATELY NEED YOUR HELP 

 

                                                

 

                           IF WE'RE TO SURVIVE TODAY OR TOMORROW. YES ANYTIME.     

 

   

 

                                       WILL YOU? HELP ME/US TO SURVIVE NOW.

 

 I tell you - often we're not even looked at, helped in any way or form, sometimes not even by

 the people in the know. See many of these symptoms; can come alone yet suddenly they will

 all come together; in a now and we will never know. Its only if our looks - gets so completely

 distorted by huge swellings and enormous spots we are helped. We are so easy subjected; to

 mistrust; lies are told & retold in so many forms as this is not yet fully known. Without a care 

 for us. Mistrust because no proper statistics has been published for there is yet to be made a

 proper official guidelines to all who treat us or come into contact with us. So we must or can

 only relay on the people who know and who do care about us to be proper treated in our life.

 I know we all have a responsibility in our own life - we can't if we are not told; the truth ever

 

                                 WE NEED PROTECTION; NOT A DEFENSE SYSTEM 

 

                                              

 

                                 IT IS A SAD STATE OF AFFAIRS FOR ALL ON EARTH

 

 If you too are unlucky and become anaphylactic reacting to one or more of all of these things.

 Know we must learn from our own body and you must trust that our body; will teach you too

 to become completely aware. For if our symptoms is not completely after a book; you can be

 in great risk you'll not be diagnosed proper getting, wrong diagnosis is truly life threatening.

 There's so much misinformation out there, not to frightening a public so much is left behind

 hidden away most is plainly turned away by a blind eye or a fright they will be sued. Yet they

 would never be sued in the first place if all where open to a truth and not just self protecting.

 If workplaces looked after the staff; they have in their care, if they educated themself and all

 their staff proper. If producers of all our stuff, took proper care; or used harmless materials.

                 

                                          

 

 So be aware - any workplace is seldom completely honest or respectable as they really don't

 care for other than investors and the bottom lines as money still rules as any fear of loss will 

 increase a secrecy formula that they think - believe will protect them from any responsibility.

 A wall of silence becomes the norm - no answers comes fort. They like you; if you work well.

 Others matter not as they manipulate all truths by help from courts their power plays thrives

 without an end. We're brushed aside through manipulating truths - pressed out by their fear.

 This, has not yet been rectified from fear of what will - happen to themselves - so we're now

 brushed under the carpet and put away from any 'radar warnings' so dismissed in this maize

 we are just hidden away neglected on purpose overlooked so all faults; is covered up no end.

 

                        

    

 See this IS my truth this IS my fight and the extent of it too. Now I will LET IT GO I send it all

                                          away from me --- no more harm 

 

                                              

 

                                     SAYING NO TO THE THINGS THAT HARM US

 

                              

                                        

                     LEARNING TO SAY; NO' BY SEING WITHOUT ROSE'COLOURED GLASSES

 

     

 

 

 

                    'STAMPING' IT OUT AGAIN SO IT CAN BE SEEN FOR WHAT IT TRULY IS;

 

 

      

 

                                                       I GIVE ALL OF THIS

          out to you; hopefully not to be wasted, as it must be taken serious, without a fear;

                                                       KNOW IT IS ALL; OK

 

                                          

 yet all of this too, must be turned around, before I bless it, and let it go

 

                                     

                                    FOR KNOW, ALL OF THIS HAS BECOME MY OWN

 

             

 

                                                                SO

                            THEN, WITH THIS WISDOM; I HAVE CHANGED; MY LIFE TOO

                     FOR TO HEAL, I MUST TAKE IT ALL UP AGAIN AND TURN IT AROUND

                FEEL THIS PAIN, AS IT NOW WILL BE TRANSMUTED, INTO MY DEEP HEALING

           TRULY KNOW IN OUR HEARTS THAT WHICH IS DONE, WE CAN ALSO UNDO AGAIN

                                                       THEREFORE

                                                   

                                               I CAN PROCEED TO LIVE

 

 Yes I know I've written about it before, yet this is all so important to find this Healing I seek.

 I have a willingness to be objective to search for new facts in my life - of the life everywhere

 New openings to these old forms the ways we behave - a willingness to always tell my truth.

 See as I listened to the people 'in the know' I was told only half truths, of it all. I lost my fate

 for I suddenly became an' universal reactor' to everything - around me as all my sensitivities 

 spiraled out of control as I denied what was wrong with me just as 'these people in 'a know'.

 These walls of disbelief as they think 'that we're in it for the money' they do not have a clue.

 Money will not help us; money helps them, for any acknowledge of our plight, will do is just

 make our - our family lives - easier when we need to change so many things around us see

 money will not give us back our lives or our health or our contributions as a citizen - either

 

                                 

 

 

                            YET IT CAN PAY FOR THE HELP' WE NOW NEED TO LIVE

 

 

                                                 

 

                                    AS OUR DISABILITY' IS NOT AT ALL 'APPROVED'  

 

                                        DO A HELP; ALWAYS SPELL' PERMANENT' 

 

                                            DO PERMANENT MEAN DIS'ABILITY'      

 

 

                         

                                                     

                                          CAN WE OPEN UP TO THIS TRUTH OF   

 

             

 

                  FOR NONE OF US WOULD LIKE TO WELCOME YOU TO OUR KIND OF LIFE.

                       AS THE GOOD LIFE IS NOW IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE, FOR IN ANY DAY

                            WE HAVE TO BE VERY AWARE, EVEN WHEN WE HAVE ALL

                                THESE MEDICATIONS THAT WILL 'WAKE UP A DEATH'.

                                     THIS IS 'NOT A MAINSTREAM DIS-EASE' FOR IT

                                         HITS DEEP INTO EVERYTHING WE DO IN

                                                                  LIFE

                                               so we just do without in our day

 

                                             

 

                                              we try to be positive not negative

                         

                                               

 

                          AS WE'LL TURN AWAY FROM; WHAT IS A NORM FOR OTHERS

 

                                 

                                 

                                                  TO FIND A LITTLE BIT OF

 

 

           

 

 

                                                 AAHH BEAUTIFUL FRESH AIR

 

                               

 

 

                            AND A HEALTHY FOOD SUPPLY, TO BE ABLE TO SURVIVE

 

                             

                                   

                                          Yet food allergy gives another picture

                              

                            

 

                                  and each of us have different allergies to food

 

                             

 

 

   See if we "only have to avoid all the latex' gloves' or 'things' it would be easier to cope in life.

 

                                

 

                                                              YET

 

 When the proteins in  latex; also is recognized; by our cells' when we eat; we have problems

 It's my food reactions that has been - most difficult to live with and to understand fully too

 again I must remind you I unfortunately received the worst kind of - latex hypersensitivities

 It came from a very specific work environment very different from many others in the world.

 Yet as you will read on my site; everyone is at risk when using latex materials in their days too.

           So a latex product material avoidance alone; can be lived with; unto foods kick in.

 

                           

 

                            WHEN; WE GET SERIOUS SICK BY OUR FOOD ITS TERRIBLE

                      AS IT ALSO EASY, CAN BE FRIGHTENING, FOR A FAMILY TO WATCH.

              KNOW AS MY FOOD REACTIONS GOT SORTED OUT I WAS CONSTANTLY SICK.

                     AND THEY FIRST STARTED THE SAME TIME I BECAME ANAPHYLAXIS

                          I GOT SO...SICK - VERY - VERY - VERY - SICK...WAS I NOW

 

              

 

                                 AS THE REACTIONS COMES LIKE THIS ^ OR AS;

                                 THE ONE SHOWN HEREUNDER; OR TOGETHER.

 

              

                     

                               THE LATEX ALLERGY; YOU'LL FIND DO TAKE IT ALL IN,

                  FOR IT DO INCLUDE; BY WAY OF ALL THESE SAME PROTEINS; ALL OF THIS.

   WHICH ONE; WAS WHICH? AND HOW COULD WE TRULY KNOW? HOW AND WHAT; TO AVOID.

                  FOR WHEN WE LIVE WITH LATEX ALLERGIES AND LATEX CROSS ALLERGIES

                               AND WE START TO REACT TO FOODS ITS DANGEROUS

 

             

 

                            FOR THEY ALL FELT SO MUCH ALIKE, SO MUCH THE SAME

                                  THIS WAS TRULY BECOMING OUR BIG NIGHTMARE

                                      SO I COULD EAT/LIVE WITHOUT REACTIONS   

 

                                                             

 

                                        SAME, SYMPTOMS AND SAME; REACTIONS

                            AND THAT IS ONLY; BECAUSE THEY ARE THE SAME IN US.

                                       ALL THIS MUST BE KNOWN TO BE HEALED

 

                                                        

 

                                        TO NEVER PLAY DICE WITH YOUR LIFE

 KNOW IF YOU HAVE 'NORMAL' FOOD ALLERGIES, IT IS NOT A GIVEN YOU WILL REACT OR HAVE

 SEVERE ALLERGIES; TO ALL THAT WE DO; WHO HAS LATEX ALLERGIES, FOR WE WERE SO EASY 

 SENSITIZED TO SO MANY, MANY OF THE DIFFERENT PROTEINS; ALL AT SAME TIMES, WHEN WE

 WORKED; WITH THESE LATEX PRODUCTS; AND ESPECIALLY THESE POWDERED LATEX GLOVES.

 PLEASE READ ABOUT ALL OF THESE LATEX PROTEINS ON MY LATEX PAGE: "TRUTH OF LATEX"

 MOST PEOPLE WITH FOOD ALLERGY OR ANAPHYLAXIS IS ALLERGIC TO ONE OR TWO PROTEINS

 WHEN WE HAVE; LATEX HYPERSENSITIVITIES WE CAN BE ALLERGIC TO MANY; THIS SAME TIME,

                                          FOR WE WERE EXPOSED; DOUBLE UP

 

                                             

 

                                           KNOW ALLERGY TO FOOD IS SERIOUS

 THIS MUST BE REALIZED BE KNOWN, SO WE'RE NOT PLAYING DICE WITH OUR LIVES; ANY TIME.

 YET, HOW CAN WE KNOW; WITHOUT RISKING OUR LIVES. SOMETIMES; IT WAS THE WAY FOODS

 HAD BEEN TREATED; BY USING GLOVES; OR SOMETHING IN THE PROCEDURE; BY ADDING ALL

 OTHER THINGS; NOT SHOWN; ON THE LABEL, AS IT NORMALLY DO NOT AFFECT, THE KNOWN

 ALLERGENS OR ALLERGIC PEOPLE. OR IT COULD SIMPLY COME FROM THE WAY IT WAS PACKED.

 ONLY BY A GREAT DETECTIVE WORK, WOULD WE EVER KNOW, ONLY BY ELIMINATING ONE' OR 

 THE OTHER AND TRY AGAIN; WOULD WE EVER KNOW; WHAT IT WAS THAT DID AFFECT US SO.

                                          YES, THESE FACTS OF LATEX; IS SCARY.

 

                                             

 

                         WOULD YOU BE 'PANICKY' OR 'PARANOID' BY THESE FACTS

               ( just remember the touch/skin, the injection, and the inhalation routes )

                          BESIDES; THROUGH EATING ALL OF OUR PRECIOUS FOOD

 

                           

 

                      NOW; IN REGARDS 'TO YOUR OWN FOODS' AND IN YOUR LIFE.

 

                                                                           

                                            BE AWARE OF ANY SYMPTOMS         

                                                    

                                      BE AWARE, AND DO TAKE GREAT CARE

                                      YOU MUST LIVE AND EAT PROPER FOOD

                                      THINK ABOUT; THESE DIGESTIVE JUICES

                                         

                                                                SO

                                      LET YOUR FOOD BE MODIFIED FROM OUR

                                      ORIGINAL; THIS INTENDED WAY, WE EAT.

                                      THEN YOU SHOULD BE SAFE, TO EAT ALL

                                                               TOO

                  

                                                

                                     aaaaaaaacchhhhhhoooo0oooo

                                                              FOR

                                                       UUUHHUUU      

                                                   

                                          

 

                                                   TO ENJOY YOUR FOOD.

                                                       YOU MUST ALSO

                                    KNOW THE SYMPTOMS; HOW IT ALL  STARTS. 

                                               PLEASE READ ABOUT 'THE OAS'

                                                     ON MY LATEX PAGE;       

                                                         Truths of Latex

 

                                                   

 

                                            which apple are the healthy one?

 

                                 

 

                                                    the one with a worm

 

                              

 

                                                      or the one without

                          

                          

 

 

                          if the worm can eat it' without being sick or die so can you

                                         unless you are allergic to apples  

 

                                                    

 

 

                                                               YES!

                          WE MUST EAT, YET WHAT WE EAT; WE ALSO MUST KNOW.

                                            I DO AND I WILL URGE YOU; TO

                                                        ......PLEASE.....

                                               KEEP EATING YOUR GREENS

                                             AND ALL OF YOUR FOODS TOO

                                          YET BE ALSO AWARE OF SYMPTOMS.  

                                      SO IF YOU GET SYMPTOMS FROM EATING.  

                                    WRITE DOWN THESE SYMPTOMS AND THEN

                                  DO SEE A SPECIALIST DO GET IT CHECKED OUT          

                        

                                          

 

   FOR ALLERGIES ARE INCREASING, ALL OVER THE EARTH, IS IT MARCHING FORT WITH SPEED.

   PEOPLE ARE AT GREAT RISK i.e. IF YOU HAVE A FAMILY HISTORY, OF ALLERGIES OR ASTHMA.

   AS WE ARE ALL RESPONSIBLE; FOR WHAT IS DONE TO US, AND WHAT WE DO TO OUR SELVES.

                                                  IT'S ALWAYS HARD WORK     

                                                 

                                                  SOMETHING WE MUST SEE.

  NOW; DID YOU KNOW THAT UP TO: 45 MILLION PEOPLE, IN AMERICA LIVE WITH; A RISK; OF

  ANAPHYLAXIS THE STATISTIC CAN BE FOUND HERE:II_statistics_2_29_08.pdf.Adobe Reader

  NO NOT ONLY TO LATEX AS EVERYTHING CAN GIVE US ANAPHYLAXIS; FOURTYFIVE MILLION

  AND THAT; IS ONLY AMERICA, DO YOU THINK; WE HAVE GOT A REALLY BIG PROBLEM NOW?

 

 

        

 

                                            WHAT? HOW DID THIS JUST HAPPEN ?

 

                                          

                                   

                                            other similarities and differences

 

                                             

 

 

                                           THE BREATH AND THE BEAT IN US            

                       

 

 

 

                                                  ^ THE HEART ATTACK ^

 

 

 

 

                                           ^ AND THE ANAPHYLXIS SYMPTOMS ^

 

                       

                               

                                                   IN THIS WORLD OF OURS

  YET IT IS; AN OVER-REACTION OF CELLS; THAT WILL NOT RECEIVE; ANY FORM OF ALTERED

  STUFF, BE IT; POLLUTION, TOXINS, VIRUSES, FUNGUS, GERMS, PARASITES AND CARCINOGEN

  IT IS EVERY WHERE NOW, YET STILL; MANY PEOPLE ARE HEALTHY, PLEASE STAY' THAT WAY'

  FOR IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THOUGHT, THAT OUR BODIES LOOK OUT FOR US; IT'S HEALTH.

                                                     CELLS ALIVE; AND CARE

                                                   

 

                      PLEASE DO NOT LET IT SPREAD TO YOU OR YOUR SURROUNDINGS

                                                     SO WHAT IS ALLERGIES??

  ARE THEY NOT JUST SAVING US FROM HARM FOR THE SCIENTIST ARE TRYING TO INCREASE

  THE IMMUNE RESPONSE IN SO MANY SICK PEOPLE GET THEIR BODIES TO HEAL THEMSELVES. 

  JUST FOR THESE SICK PEOPLE TRYING TO GET THEIR OWN IMMUNE SYSTEM TO HEAL THEM?

  SO ARE WE NOW; IN REALITY; REALLY HEALTHY, JUST WITH 'A HYSTERICAL' IMMUNE SYSTEM

                                                      SO; IS IT NOW POSSIBLE?

                                                

                                                      TO DO ALL; DIFFERENT,  

 POSSIBLE TO HEAL MYSELF OF THIS? MY BODY KICKS UP SUCH A FUSS IF I GET A VIRUS, IT GET

 COMPLETE HYSTERICAL OR IT ENCOUNTER ANY ALLERGEN; TO THE POINT OF SHUTTING ME

 DOWN, IT WILL IRRITATE MY SKIN NO END; WITH SWELLINGS AND SORES; IF I TOUCH THINGS.

 YET ITS JUST TRYING TO BE GOOD TO ME TO HEAL ME, OR LOOK OUT FOR ME HEALTH WISE.

                                                      CAN I; DO SOMETHING?

                                                         

                                                     TO CALM MY CELLS DOWN

  IF; MY IMMUNE SYSTEM IS HEALTHY, AS IT WILL NOT; LET ME GET SICK, IT WILL NOT ACCEPT

  ANY VIRUS, BACTERIA OR OTHER FORM FOR ALTERED STATUS. SO TRULY; I AM ALREADY SO

  HEALTHY, AS I EVER CAN BE. IT HAS JUST BECOME A LITTLE TOO AWAKE, SO I WILL CALM IT;

  IS THAT THE SECRET, THAT I JUST NEED TO CALM MY CELL AND BODY COMPLETELY DOWN?

                                                     BY AN 'INNER WILL' I WILL

                                                        

                                                     CALM IT ALL DOWN NOW                                                  

 YES YOU CAN SAY IT CAN'T BE DONE AND I DO NOT YET KNOW IF IT CAN BE DONE, BUT I AM

 GOING; TO GIVE IT A TRY. I KNOW WE CAN DO A LOT, WITH OUR ATTITUDES; WITH ANY, ALL

 OF OUR THOUGHTS THEY DO ALWAYS MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN OUR LIVES. SO CAN WE TO OUR

 BODY TOO TRULY CHANGE ITS WAYS? CAN WE TRULY HEAL' OURSELVES BY THESE THOUGHTS

                                                      CELLS & MOLECULES TOO

 

                                                   

             

                                                   I'LL RE-WORK AND RE-FORM

    ALL THIS IS NOW TO BE SEEN AS ALREADY HEALED, LEARNED FROM AND TURNED AROUND.

                                                   HOLDING; THE HEALING RAY

 

                                                

 

                                                    IN, ANY NOW, I WILL; DO IT                

     

                           AS I HAVE SET MY WILL TO HEAL:

                 

           

 

                         FROM THE INSIDE AND OUT YET ALSO FROM THE OUTSIDE IN

 

 

       

                                            

                                       TO HEAL OR HEALING; BODY & SOUL

 

                  

 

 

 WHAT IS A TRUE HEALING? WHAT IS IT WE EXPECT BY BEING HEALED, CAN WE HEAL A BODY ?

       HEALING THE BODY, WITHOUT ALSO HEALING THE MIND THE SPIRIT AND OUR SOUL?

 

 

                           

 

 

        WILL WE BE ABEL TO STEP OUT AND TO FEEL FREE IF WE DO NOT HEAL EVERYTHING ?

 IF WE JUST HEAL A BODY, WILL THE OLD ANGER LINGER, WILL AN UNFINISHED THOUGHT STAY'

 

 

                           

 

 

                                              AS ITS STILL ALL; SO UN-HEALED

 

 

                                

 

                          BLACK OR WHITE YET WE CAN LEARN TO DANCE IN THE RAIN

 

                  about;  the stress anxiety and panic we experience

 

 

                          THE DANCE ABOUT LIFE AND DEATH WITH ANAPHYLAXIS

 

 

                                        

 

 

                                       WHERE A TIME BECOMES NONE EXISTENT

 

                        

                               

                               

 

                                              TRYING TO STOP THESE SHOCKS

 

 

      

 

 

                                                     THIS IS ALL; TOO MUCH

 

 

                                     

 

 

                             IS IT POSSIBLE FOR THIS NOT TO BECOME CHRONIC IN US.

 

 

                                       

 

 

                                        CAN WE FIND OUR BALANCE OUR HEALTH?

 

 

                                               

 

        When we get anaphylaxis, from so many things around us, when we have to deal with 

        a life threatening circumstance; none stop in our lives. Do/can we mitigate this cyclus.

 

                How do we make sure that IT it self don't become the dis-ease in us too?

 

        To live; in anxiety is very debilitating, it promotes so much stress. Yet we live & we do'

        survive on this stress that is coming with our anaphylaxis it actually helps us to survive.

 

                 Yet we must continuously maintain a balance in our body and in the soul.

 

        We release adrenalin in these situation, the fight or fear comes up in us instantly which

        we can use to mitigate, it helps our bodies yet most often we do need more adrenalin.

 

                 So this anxiety has to be dealt with at the same time as all our symptoms.

 

        Very, very scary symptoms which come on fast; going through; our whole body; yes it

        certainly are felt; it can be seen & it can be measured in breath, heart, stomach, skin.

 

                We have to be so careful; not to make this worse; for ourselves every day.

 

          If we then suffer from the type IV Cell mediated allergy too we do/have even more of

         all of the (yet) different symptoms; not as aggressive, they are painful and drawn out.

 

                 So often it is constant pains, or heightened state of awareness; we suffer.

 

          We withdraw naturally from all this that affect our bodies none stop, which again can

          look as we're phobic or have social anxiety disorders, yet we get extra adrenalin/inj.

 

                We can become obsessive and compulsive in our daily lives of a necessity.

 

          So we must somehow learn to adapt to set us free of the roller coaster that comes to

          us so easily, so suddenly and quickly disappear or linger forever, in the background.

 

                 Become aware of the under and over production of all our adrenaline too.

 

          When we have many; big anaphylaxis; it really makes a mess of our lives, as we get

          into these huge imbalances; on so many of our hormone levels it do shift everything.

 

                 These exhaust periods, can become, as over productions, as we 're-act'  

 

          We can get fears, anger, very upset, we cry and we often feel; exhausted & wt. gain

          unable to cope in our days with apathy/depression low self-esteem poor circulation.

 

                  It will make other hormones respond; in us; in many different ways too.

 

           An over productive mode> change in breathing patterns wt. loss digestions or Bt ^

           our blood sugar levels, heart rate changes feeling terror, migraines, 'flu symptoms'

 

                This too, will make it much harder, for people to understand or help us.

       

          See too much adrenaline; all the time, give us symptoms.Too little adrenaline, gives

          also symptoms & too much or too little histamine muck us all up too. Find A Balance. 

 

                 Can you see how close all these symptoms comes allergy symptoms too. 

 

          All these things mess with our brains, i.e confusions black outs with blood' reactions

          then incredible breathing problems all do affect a  heart & the rest of our body' too.

    

                  I am, I will do; all I can to change this around in me, as this is not a life. 

 

          Our thoughts can readjust many things in us both ways, we can by thoughts make it

          much worse. Yet to learn to control ones own thoughts' when 'the horse have bolted' 

 

                 Is very, very difficult and very, very hard work as we do loose all control.

 

           We can try 'to tell our body that the food we eat will not affect us'; but its on the cell

           level we react from a trillion cells at a same time its not the same a burning a finger.                                         

                                         

                                                 

 

 

                                             NOT ENOUGH; IS TOO LITTLE, TOO.

          

 

                                  

 

 

                        WE MUST FIND THE BALANCE NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT IT IS

 

 

                                

 

 

                         TOO MUCH AND TOO LITTLE; OF OF EVERYTHING; MAKES SICK

 

 

                                                     

 

                                                  OR MAKE US ALL GO WILD'?

 

 

                                           

                                            'NO, NOT IN ME'

 

                          

         

                                                   THEREFORE NOW, I WILL BE

 

 

               

 

                            SEEING THINGS AND TURNING IT ALL THE WAY AROUND

 

                

 

                                                       YES  SMILE  FOR

 

 I believe my true healing will come from the inside and out just as - sickness came from the

 outside and in. Then when its realized and all the quick fix ways; is outlived we come to the

 'nittygritty' of ones own healing. Realizing things, often are more complicated when there is

 nothing needs to be cut out, having chemo or rays, as even our medication' will only relieve.

 We/I will have to heal from the cellular level to Find Back to his balance point I've left behind.

                                                        

 Realizing too that my body is only overprotecting me in my dangerous kind of allergic state it

 has gone overboard hysterical; always on a high alert; to catch anything; that comes too near.

 The starting point then; must be to calm down all these cells. Done slowly - with a great care

 'give the cells, give them something we already can do, and add a tiny little bit more of some

 of the stuff it always is on a look out for. Yet this is incredible difficult its so very dangerous.

                                                        

 As this is not a sickness as such, its an unbalance right down on a molecule level, these cells

 talking point our cells health trigger point the ones that decide together with our genes if we

 get cancer, viruses or a thousand other sicknesses. These cells and these molecules 'decided'

 that they wouldn't let anything in to change the health'status that I or other people was/is in.

 Going down in my own body with my mind spirit my soul from the spiritual side of me, heals.

                                                         

 As everything is interconnected in this world as is the whole universe too. All is so very, very

 balanced, chemicals that all a physical worlds are made up from is anywhere in this universe,

 inside us all everything we eat and is near nothing but nothing it not made by atoms or cells.

 How, can I go back down; to this level, other than from my spirit being - can/will I change it

 as all - also physical - can be changed by the spark the wish the power of thought it creates

 

                                        ANOTHER WAY OF A HEALING POWER

 

                         

 

                                       IN THESE GREAT WEBS OF ALL; IN LIFE

                    LEARNING US TO SEE ALL THESE DIVINE LINES AND CONNECTIONS   

                                      SPREADING OUT THROUGHOUT IT ALL

 

              

                                            

                                        LIGHT I'S ENERGY, LIGHT MAKE DARKNESS

                       DISAPPEAR, LIGHT IS NOTHING WE CAN HOLD ONTO YET WE CAN

                                         SHINE IT OUT, OVER EVERY THING IN LIFE

 

 

                                                                                     

                                     A LIGHT AND A HEART

                  

                        

 

                                      SHOW US NOW THIS SO BRIGHT INNER LIGHT

                       LEARNING US TOO; ALL WE DO; COMES BACK TO US AS; A-GAIN  

                                      YET ONLY' IF WE CAN TURN IT; INTO A LOVE

                                    

             

 

 So as I see things in harmless ways as part of Divine in all. I also see all the learning we must

 go through as the real force of any evolution No Matter where in a line, we stand. All that we

 do to each other to learn to come back - be more of this connection that runs through us all

 to all. I can also see the evolution how it has this red tread running through just like a divine

 power runs permanently though all. There's no life existing anywhere in the universe that do

 not contain - a part of something else. All works together, even being pulled apart, by force

 by thought by will or by a rhythm of the seas of movement in everything Nothing is Nothing.

                                                   

 What's Healing then its to come fully into awareness it is to choose it is to Know exactly how

 to choose the Love - Care the Peace and a Harmlessness, in all ones dealings with all others;

 other parts of ones connections to all. Yet it's here learning comes in; the balancing of it  all

 its so difficult as we harness and contain so many parts; of former hurts, hurting words and 

 thoughts of these hurting deeds our world is full of. Its to become who we wish others to be.

 No if No -But, No excuse can be good enough it is to stand up for ones will to see the Good'.

 To be able to say No, to be able to say Yes; to change ones meaning - in ones own evolution.

                                                    

 Blessings, healing into a balance is to walk ones thoughts, and stand by ones deeds, as ones

 own stepping stones on the path it will go on forever; its to acknowledge, that its not always

 a straight road. Or we can if we're not careful run around in circles going nowhere, and then

 unable to learn from former mis'takes from former decisions of how it all came about by our 

 own will to take a certain road at a certain time in life. Its to learn - then to let it go; a-gain.

 Blessings do comes fort when we realize its us who are responsible for our own life & deeds.

 Blessings comes by a will to step up to stand on ones own step to be who I can stand by too

                                                              NOW 

 

                                                     

                                                    I AM A-GAIN; COMING

                                                 INTO; ALL MY OWN TRUTHS

                                             AS I LISTEN; ONLY TO MY HEART

                                       NOT JUST BY THE WILL OF ALL LEARNED.

                                   I TELL ALWAYS, WHAT ONLY LIFT UP AND HEAL

                              YET I WILL ALWAYS, TELL IT ALL, AS I SEE IT, AND CALL

                          IT BY ANY NAME I FEEL CAN WAKE>UP<WAKE; IT ALL AGAIN.

                       I'LL BE AND DO TO OTHERS, AS I WANT THEM TO BE, DO TO ME

                                                              ALWAYS

                                        EVEN IF IT MOMENTARILY HURTS A BIT

                              AS THE ALL SAYING GOES; NO HURT NO GAIN EITHER

                        I CAN TRULY SAY; THAT IS CORRECT, AS THAT IS WHAT I LIVE

                               

                           

 

                                                         AND NOW I AM

                 WORKING WITHOUT REST LIKE ALL THESE CELLS AND MOLECULES IN ME

                 AS I SEE IT AS MY INTER-(WEB)-NET, IT'S A VERY FINE SAFETY NET TOO

 

                    

 

                                    THIS WEB; IT IS OF UNLIMITED LOVE; TO ALL

 

                                    LOVING AND HEALING

                        

              

                                      STARTING; WITH DAY ONE, OF MY NEW LIFE

 

             

 

                                            FROM A DARKNESS INTO LIGHT

 

Gone; are this darkness, the blaming, and the tears of before, gone are the I bleak outlook for

 a future of none, Gone and Blessed as I Thank it for all that I have learned I send it away Now.

 

                                            

 

Trusting like a child again so I can live and I can Heal trusting myself knowing that I can cope

Knowing I'm blessed that I have received wisdom and knowledge about myself to grow to Be. 

                                    

             

 

  As Inner and Outer Light Blast Through My Being I AM who I Am -  I Live With It All, in a New

  Inner Peace a calmness I missed for too long - a newness and a wonder of what time brings.

 

                   

   

  A New Life is for me, because I have shifted a gear, I have changed and I have accepted Now

  a different outlook a different way of being. No more fights with anyone For I Am, In Charge

.

             

 

  Seeing things again in full color feeling more than an inner outer pain reaching out to touch

  to feel and to hug; a new way of being opening to a true beauty of all of life not just any life.

 

           

 

  Abel to look further and deep into my surroundings not just what is around me in every now

  wanting to become this sensitivity in me wanting a richness it gives to my life yet its calmed

 

            

 

 Feeling new inner wealth a richness of spiritual power, an acceptance that I can have and live

 even a restricted life if that was what my soul wanted me to experience to evolve further as I.

 

            

 

 Letting the sunshine in, letting the power of life penetrate everything in my 'now'ment' to live

 with this knowledge - that everything is more so much more than we perceive it to be in life.

                                        Yes, I can see I DO have a future too

                                                    

                                        

 

 

                       LETTING IT BE MORE OF ALL YET SO SIMPLIFIED AND PEACEFUL

 

 

                        with love from the mirror, of my souls eye

         

 

 

 

 

 

 

            SEEING THROUGH IT ALL, SEE IT THROUGH OUR SOULS EYE, AS IT CHANGES IT ALL  

 

 

             

 

           CHOOSING A DIFFERENT PICTURE; OF OUR LIFE; SEE ANOTHER DOORWAY IN LIFE

 

                                         

 

                                               SEE IT ALL THE WAY AROUND

 

                                     

                                        

                                                 THIS WAS MY AWAKENING

 

                                                           

 

                                                    IT IS MY BLESSING IN LIFE

 

                                                  

 

                                                     TO LOVE AND BE LOVED

 

                                               

 

                                                   AS LOVE CAN SURVIVE IT ALL

 

                                                   

 

                                              SO I WILL NOW SHARE WITH YOU TOO

 

                                                        

 

                                   'MY PRAYER'; IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT; I RECEIVED

 

                                            

 

                                         ONE DAY, IN ONE OF MY DAILY MEDITATIONS

                                                         IT HELPS ME, NO END;     

                                          TO LET GO, ACCEPT & ENJOY MY LIFE ANEW

 

 

                                                               NOW

                 I AM FILLED WITH A HUGE GRATITUDE THAT I HAVE BEEN ALLOWED BY

                THESE VERY DEEP PHYSICAL PAINFUL AND AT TIMES VERY, VERY SCARY

                 EXPERIENCES, TO COME INTO A NEW; PEACEFUL EXISTENCE AND LOVE.

                 THESE EXPERIENCES HAVE HELPED ME OPEN TO A STUDY OF SO MUCH

                 IN THIS WORLD WE LIVE IN. FROM THE NECESSITY FIRST TO SURVIVE AS

                 THESE ALLERGIES TOOK HOLD OF MY LIFE THEN TO FIND AN OUTLET A

                 KIND OF INNER FREEDOM, NOT FEELING SO HURT, SO FRIGHTENED, AS

                 I HAD; NO LIFE AT ALL. SO I COULD LEARN TO LIVE WITH; WHAT I HAVE

                 BEEN GIVEN AS MY LOT IN LIFE HAVE ANY KIND OF LIFE WITH A FUTURE.

 

                                                   ...TO BE CONTINUED...

 

 

 

 

                               AS I'M STILL HEALING MY BODY, MIND, SPIRIT AND SOUL

                                     ...SO, SOME DAY SOON; SOON I WILL BE BACK...

 

                                                  AS I TRULY TURN BOTH WAYS

 

                                                       

 

                                                HEALED ALL THE WAY AROUND

 

                        FOR I WILL NOT BE AFRAID OF MY BODY'S REACTIONS ANYMORE.

                        I WILL LET MY CELLS BE AWARE YET ALWAYS CALM THEM DOWN

                        I WILL DANCE IN MY MIND TO CELEBRATE THAT I HAVE HEALED

                                              

                                             THE HURT AND THE FORMER PAIN

 

                       

 

 

                                    IN MY'SELF & IN; MY OWN WORLD, ALL IS JUST FINE

 

 

                        

 

 

                         JUST BECAUSE, I KNOW ALL IS - AS IT SHOULD BE, WHERE; I AM. 

 

 

                           

                      

 

                                               FOR ALL I GOT; MADE ME WHOLE!

 

 

                       

 

 

 

                                AS I SEE BEHIND IT ALL; WITH THIS INNER CHILDS' EYE'

 

 

 

 

 

 

                           PLEASE BE OPEN AND QUESTION EVERYTHING AROUND YOU!

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                   

 

 

                                    into my healing journey

             

 

                       FOR A HEALING JOURNEY; IS TRULY; 'A WONDEROUS JOURNEY'

 

                                          

 

                           OF OUR SO FLEETING INNER SOUL; TO LEARN TO FLY FREE

 

                                

 

                          'FROM SPLIT OPEN AND BROKEN'; TO HEALING IT ALL TOO

 

                  

                      

                               TO SEEING A NEW BALANCE; IN ALL LIVING THINGS

 When we are healing, we become awake, we start to feel everything in a different way, we can

 suddenly seeing all around us when we let the old ways go. 'See its easy' to be happy to live a

 joyful life when things are easy in life - we just dance along without much care, for tomorrow.

                                           FROM ALL THE OLD INTO THIS NEW

 

                                 

 

                                    BLESSING, AS A NEW LIGHT BREAKS THROUGH

 Things then come to us out of the blue to up'vake to wake us up to move behind what we did

 without thought of tomorrow - without we go deep into our souls light into the heart of it all.

 We are not here to just get along we're here on a journey to evolve in our own eternal spirit/I

                                    KNOWING ALL FREEDOM; COMES FROM INSIDE

 

 

                                       

                                     YET, I FORGOT TO DREAM, TO EVOLVE

 Dreaming creates in us thoughts make us move, decisions to do to make, to be or to become

 what we never thought we could be could do or become in life not by fright its first when that

 leaves us we can move; yet for that to leave we must decide - must will ourselves to reach up

                                     'A MUST' BEFORE WE SINK, BEFORE WE DIE

 

                                       

 

                                         AS I JUST STOOD SO STILL, IN MY LIFE

 Yet I was NOT still at all I was busy very, very busy, with my life my love my family, earning a

 living; I do my bit everywhere, conform to the norms, and to live up to all the pressures from

 everywhere saying: Yes to this and to that I stood still in my soul I - forgot; to grow the I/me

                                        SO I GOT MY OWN, RUDE AWAKENING 

 

                                  

 

                                                 FINDING NEW EQUILIBRIUM

                                                                  

                                      

        

 

                                             I HAD TO TURN IT ALL AROUND

 When we get lazy things stop moving us along. We'll get a loving push to move along; on our

 chosen path first we hear a tiny whisper if that is being ignored we'll get more and more until

 we start to move. Yes first we get numb then sad - then why me? comes up until we see it all.

                                            EMERGING; FROM ALL DARKNESS

 

                                

 

                                          AS A DIFFERENT ROAD; WAS SHOWN

 See it in a different way see that we are OK, see that things, can move on again, if we are not

 giving up, on the way trowing in the towel; say enough is enough, and lay down to die, If we

 move behind this point we can again start to live we can create a new life with all we now live

                                        I DID NOT DIE I HAD JUST; STOOD STILL

 

                                       

     

                                       I SLEPT FOR SUCH A LONG TIME ON EARTH 

 Change in lives will never stop as it's through these changes we truly live it is trough the hard

 times we decide, to become to create a different life for ourselves it's through a change of life

 we wake up we stand up - we see with different eyes - on all that was before us in life seeing.

                               I CAN NOW SEE IT ALL; THROUGH MY OWN SOULS EYE  

         

                             

                                I AWOKE; TO SEE A NEW CLEAR PATTERN EMERGE 

 No'thing was ever broken in me nothing needed to be fixed my body had moved and my soul

 needed to move with it healing just comes naturally when we move ourselves away from what

 has hold us caught has hold us frozen in life time hold us frightened to loose ourselves again

                               FOR; ALL IS GAINED, ALL IS PERFECT; WHEN WE KNOW   

 

                                                          OURSELVES

             

                       

 

       IF WE'RE SEEING; JUST DIFFERENT PATTERNS OF LIFE, AND THEN WE CHOOSE A-GAIN

 

                                 

      

                                                THE FIRST CHANGE; IS DIFFICULT

 

               

 

      YET LATER EVERYTHING BECOMES MUCH, MUCH MORE, MORE OF EVERYTHING; IN LIFE

 

 

                                 

                                               

 

                                           AND FIRST THEN DID I FEEL AWAKE