03 03 2013
LIVING as I am already HEALED
FOR SEE IT IS STILL MY LIFE, EVEN IT IS A QUIET LIFE
Yes I Am still living very - Isolated - It Is for my Own Security.
yet it is a new beginning
YES I AM STILL VERY FRAGILE, BUT STILL I'M FULL OF FIRE
AND I CAN HONESTLY SAY:
ALL LIFE, IS PRECIOUS WHEN WE CAN; LOVE
IT IS JUST ABOUT SEEING, IT ALL 'DIFFERENT'
AND ITS JUST, ABOUT LIVE THE BEST YOU CAN, WITH WHAT YOU GOT;
FOR EVERY DAY YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING YOU GOT YET ANOTHER DAY TO;
A CHANCE TO MAKE IT - A BEAUTIFUL DAY TOO
EVEN IF YOU JUST SEE THINGS THROUGH THE LOVE AND JOY; OF CHILDS EYE
HEALING COMES IF IT MUST, YET YOU CAN MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER;
IN THE MEANTIME WE CAN TRY TO FIND:
SO THIS IS HOW/WHO I AM NOW
YES MY CELLS ARE STILL EXCITED AND WILL REACT YET I'VE LEARNED
TO BE CALM AND COLLECTED TO BE ABLE TO TREAT MYSELF IN TIME
I DO NOT FEEL SO HUNTED, BY ALL THE UNSEEN, I REACT' BADLY TO
THAT I HOPE WILL HELP ME RE'ACT
WHILE, I TRY TO HEAL; IT' ALL'
as I feel the leaking' get less & the shock subsides
as I feel blessed; I am allowed' to find; inner Peace
as I know nothing comes without reasons/seasons
as i find all exist perfect within Equallity and Love
as these tiny anti'bodies our true guardian angels
PROTECT AND LOVE US ALL
THEY CAN BE AND SHOW US THE STILLNESS TOO
FROM THE INSIDE AND OUT.
I NOW SEE; A BLESSED PROTECTION (NOT A DEFENSE)
AND NOT FROZEN; IN TIME.
I SEE ONLY MY HEALTHY IMMUNE SYSTEM
'I SEE' IT HEALED'
I SEE NO MORE ANY LEAKING HISTAMINE
MY CELLS ARE MORE STABILE THAN EVER'
AND IF THEY LEAK
I SEE THEM IN A NEW LIGHT' AS THEY TRULY' PROTECT' LIFE
THEY SECURE LIFE
WITHOUT OUR IMMUNE SYSTEM WE DIE'
I DO SEE MY HEALTHY' IMMUNE SYSTEM'
FOR I KNOW; WE GET' NO' MORE; THAN WE CAN DEAL WITH; IN LIFE
ALLERGY OR CANCER 2' ENDS' OF SAME
ALLERGY WONT LET ANYTHING INTO THE CELL IT WILL RATHER DIE
CANCER TAKES IN AND THEN MULTIPLY
ALLERGY' LEAKS THE INSIDE OUT & CANCER' MAKE MORE OF IT'SELF
BOTH DO MULTIPLY, DIFFERENT WAYS'
BOTH NEED TO REFORM' INTO NEW BALANCE INTO A TRANQUILITY
AND THAT COMES; FROM TWO SIDES
JUST LIKE A MALE & A FEMALE IS 2 AS 1'
THE 2 AS 1'
I AND YOU ARE LIKE YIN AND YANG; OF OUR IMMUNE SYSTEMS'
YOU AND I NEED TO FIND THE BALANCE IN OUR DIS'EASE
WE CAN HEAL BY FINDING BACK TO THE INNER CELL' BALANCE'
THE 1 IS 2'
'BECAUSE YOU LOVED AND STILL LOVE ME, I CAN; GO THROUGH'
'EVERYTHING; BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME SO'
'BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I CAN HELP YOU THROUGH Y'OUR PAINS'
FOR HEALING IS MUCH MORE THAN A WISH'
FOR YOU' SHOWED' ME, HOW SIMPLE IT IS'
I see not; what I can't do' so much any'more. I see more; what I can do'
as I take small careful steps
I'm still isolated but the lid is off; I have not been jailed, just protected
I Will Forever; Do My Best To
To reach out to help others and thereby helping myself to understand
Learn; How To Heal; My'Self
No More extra Leaks from any of my cells No More shadows in my life.
We are all just, As The One
If when one' is hurt all is hurt; then if one can heal; all is being healed.
When one is healed all can heal when hurt stop there is no more hurt.
We are all just, As The One'
When we know we can be healed we make effort to heal & be healed
Miracles; happens at all' times
When we meet' in' the middle & create a tranquility, through our love'
Believe its possible for me/us
When we believe strong enough, when we trust in just one God in us
Stars galaxies or cells so alike
When we see it that way, there is more important 'things' in our lives.
THIS IS IT; IT IS ALL!
WHAT'S HEALING ANYWAY; IS IT A HEALTHY'
SPIRIT & SOUL; A PERSON; THAT ENJOY LIFE; NO MATTER WHAT?
IS IT A TRUST THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU
KNOW YOU'LL BE OK?
FOR YOU CAN SET YOUR SOUL FREE!
JUST LIKE THESE STARS AND GALAXIES ARE SO ETERNAL TO US
IN A CANCER TOO; BLOOD & CELLS WILL TEND TO THIS HEALING
'THE GIFT OF LIFE; BECOMES THE PRESENT LIFE'
THE STEM' OF SELF UNDERSTOOD; TO BE HEALED TRANSMUTED
THEN THE HEALING WILL FLOW THROUGH US AGAIN
FOR I KNOW MY/OUR IMMUNE SYSTEMS DO PROTECT ME/US; ALL' WAYS'
AS I SEE HOW; IT ALL WORK; I CAN BY WILL, TRUST IT; FROM MY SOUL
CAN I THEN HELP OTHERS TO UNDERSTAND, THEIR OWN PAINS OR 'DIS-EASES' TOO?
AT LEAST I CAN TRY, I CAN GIVE MY HAND AND A NEW KNOWLEDGE.
OUR; IMMUNE-SYSTEM & AFFECTED' AREAS;
DO THEY' GIVE' US PAINS OR PROTECTION?
OUR IMMUNE CELLS CONSTANTLY RE'NEW
AS I NOW' WILL START TO HEAL- MY BODY, MIND AND SOUL
FOR I KNOW IF I CAN DO IT SO CAN ALL OTHERS TOO
WE JUST NEED TO FIND THE RIGHT WAY TO TURN AROUND.
'SEE ARE THESE OUR SILENTLY WORKING INNER CELLS' JUST LIKE THE STARS?
STARS TOO MOVE AROUND; COME TOGETHER AND 'BURST' THEY EVEN DIE'
THIS CREATION OF LIFE IN HIS PICTURE; GOD' MADE' FOR ALL HIS CHILDREN'
NOW, CAN MY OVER'REACTION' IN MY IMMUNE SYSTEM' ALSO; BE MY BLESSING?
JUST AS THE IMMUNE SYSTEM NOW CAN BE BOOSTED TO HELP CURE A CANCER
WE HAVE COME A VERY LONG WAY IN UNDERSTANDING PROTECTION OF LATE.
CAN WE TRULY HEAL; BY TALKING TO OUR BODY; AND OUR CELLS
ARE WE TRULY; WHAT WE BELIEVE WE ARE, CAN WE HEAL' JUST BY POSITIVE
THOUGHTS' WORDS BY LIVING KNOWING WE'RE ALREADY PERFECT.
TO NOT ONLY PROTECTING THE ME'; BUT ALSO HEALING ALL OTHERS?
AS WE ARE LEARNING ABOUT; A NEW EARTHY BALANCE; FOR ALL TO HEAL
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WE HAVE DISCOVERED, SO MANY THINGS THAT PROMOTE EITHER ALLERGY OR A CANCER
THE CANCER AND THE ALLERGIES ARE THESE 2 OPPOSITES ON THE ROAD TO BE HEALTHY
For the scientists also revealed that the lymphocyte activates several mechanisms leading to apoptosis, or programmed cell death. This huge self-destruction causes the rapid elimination of lymphocytes - carrying IgE while other cells in the immune system are able to survive for up to several years.
During evolution, our bodies have thus developed several self-restriction mechanisms around one of their most powerful immune "weapons," IgE. Because a cell carrying IgE can no longer move, it can only survive for a brief period -- just long enough to play a short-lived protective role against parasites, toxins and poisons. It then self-destructs by committing a sort of "hara-kiri" which strongly reduces IgE production and hence the triggering of allergies. The scientists now wish to explore in more detail the different molecular pathways governing this self-restriction. Indeed, these may constitute numerous new therapeutic targets whose pharmacological activation could block allergies, or even permit the reduction of other pathological B lymphocytes, such as those involved in lymphomas.
ITS NOW ALSO BELIEVED WE CAN HEAL MUCH BY SHEER THOUGHTS & KNOWING'
THAT WE CAN; YET WE ALSO NEED THE RIGHT NUTRIENTS.
OUR CELLS NEED FOOD, TO POWER UP PROPER, AND OUR BODY NEED TO SLEEP
SO CAN I' ALTER; HOW MY BODY & CELLS DO WORK BY HELPING' THE BODY TO HEAL IT-SELF?
OR BY THIS ENORMOUS POWER OF OUR THOUGHTS/MINDS? CAN WE TRULY HEAL OUR CELLS?
OUR BODY THROUGH OUR SOUL
OR MAYBE JUST BY MY/OUR IMAGINATION?
CAN IT TRULY HELP THAT WE REALIZE ALL IS JUST ONE'
CAN YOU TOO? CAN WE ALL?
HEAL BY SUBATOMIC ENERGY SEEN AS A GALACTIC PHOTON/LIGHT ENERGY
AN ENERGY' THAT IS THE HIGHEST FORM WE CAN COMPREHEND ON EARTH
THIS ENERGY, THAT GOES THROUGH EVERY'THING TO EXCITE' & RE'AWAKE
AN ENERGY/WAVE OF A PURPLE FLAME THAT ALWAYS SPREAD ITS ENERGY
THAT WE SEE IS BEING SENT OUT FROM OUR OWN GALACTIC CORE TO US?
LOOK'ALIKE CELLS; JUST SEPARATING & RECREATING SELF IN NEW ENERGY
CAN WE TOO INFUSE A NEW ENERGY INTO THIS SEPARATE; A PROCESS OF CELLS?
JUST AS OUR OWN CELLS RE'ACT TO VIBRATION & SOUNDS & TO ALL THOUGHTS
SO HOW MUCH IS OF KARMA HOW MUCH CAN WE TRULY CHANGE BY SEEING ALL
RECREATING ALL HEALTHY CELLS FROM THE BOTTOM UP IN PURE LOVE ENERGY
HEALING BY A TRUE' INNER CELL BALANCE OF 'HU'
Hu' this old & known' vibrational' song' of Gods Divinity
Like a fabric' it holds it all together as living Love
ALL LIFE FORMING MOLECULES KNOWN IS ALSO FOUND IN SPACE
SEE WE ARE MADE' FROM; 'STARDUST' SO TO' BE' HEALED; DO WE
NEED TO FIND BACK TO THE ORIGINAL ENERGY'FORMS OF SPACE
WATER; IS NOW FOUND THROUGH-OUT ALL OF SPACE; IT IS LIFE'
YET IT IS AS ABOVE SO BELOW SO WE DO CONTAIN' ALL WE NEED
IRON IN EARTH AND OUR BLOOD SUPPLY HAEMOGLOBIN TO LIFE
AND TO LIVE
AND WE FOUND OXYGEN IN ORION? THE HUNTER'
OXYGEN SO NECESSARY FOR OUR LIFE ON THE EARTH
THIS OLD' HEAVENLY' SHEPHERD' OF' ANU' OLD CHIEF GOD
OF THE HEAVENLY' REALMS' & RE'PRESENTING; BIRTH-REBIRTH?
OXYGEN, LIFE'GIVING TO FOODS. TO OUR; BREATH AND OUR CELLS
ITS ALL 'STEPPED DOWN' & DOWN ALL THIS WAY TO OUR HUMAN FORM'
SEEDED THROUGH GALAXIES & STAR BURST & NEBULAE TO EARTH
THEN THESE OLD MYTHS; THESE STORIES; WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG
THERE IS MORE; BETWEEN HEAVEN AND EARTH; THAN WE ADMIT'
SEEDED SPIRITUALLY THROUGH OUR RELIGION' YET WE CHANGED
ITS OUR CHEMICAL PHYSICAL WORKHOUSE & IS GIVEN LIFE & FORM' THROUGH SOULS
THROUGH OUR INNER SPIRITUAL LIFE' THAT CAN CHANGE OUR OWN DNA'
AS EASY AS WE TAKE THE NEXT BREATH AS OUR HEART BEAT
RE'CONFIRM OUR LIFE; BEAT BY BEAT & BY A BREATH'
YET ALL LIFE CREATIVITY CAN STOP IN A NOW'
SO HOW? ARE WE TREATING' THIS OUR ENORMOUS GIFT' OF LIFE'
A LOVE' THAT FLOW THROUGH EVERYTHING ALL'
JUST AS A BRIGHT LIGHT OF DIVINITY THAT GOES THROUGHOUT ALL OF EXISTENCE'
FOR I KNOW THERE IS MORE THAN MEET; THE EYE AND BETWEEN HEAVEN & EARTH
OLD WISDOM AND NOW THIS NEW; ALL IS AS WE MAKE IT; OR BRAKE IT TOO'
FROM THE FIRE WE FEAR TO MOVEMENTS WE CAN FEEL IN HEART
SO WE CAN ALSO LOOK; AT ALL WITH NEW EYES
EYES THAT SEE' OLD IN NEW
ALL WHICH HAS BEEN KNOWN FOR EONS OF TIME ON EARTH
YES' I SEE, KNOW IT ALL, AS ONE
...I SEE & FEEL A NEW INNER/OUTER BALANCE' NOW...
...WE MUST TRY, KNOW & SEE IT ALL...
AS I HONOR;ALL THAT I HAVE LEARNED FROM THIS'
I'm now turning it all around
We have been told, all of our lives, that we must put other people before ourselves, otherwise
we're egoistic and selfish. That I have done, followed all others wishes, neglected myself, into
a nothingness, into a pleasing of everyone and everything in life. That way, I was unable to do
a proper job, in me to me in my life. I became; negligent of what happened in my own life, all
got put aside if I could do something for someone else. My though was unmonitored my own
body's needs, was not always filled, my mind became fleeting and my soul got very easy hurt.
I am not going to; become selfish and I am not going to, be egoistic I hope for then I will not
get anywhere in my life. I'm going to monitor all what and how; I think every day all the time.
I am going to pay attention to my body what - how it feels and what; it needs. I am going to
be 'in my mind', in every now and be whole and happy with my lot no matter how it looks or
feels to me or any other. I am going to feed my soul the greatest Love as Care for it's Divine.
I am going to be aware of all around me that I see touch or speak to. Everything do get Care.
Nobody owe me anything as I owe nothing to anyone, yet I can still give all that I can and will
by my free will, Then I set you free to be you as I am just me which do not cancel out that we
care for each other. Freedom from what we must do or need to do make one want to do it all.
Protest, angers or pressures will never reach the pressure point when we just care for our'self
first, as we are fed' and nurtured; happy and in balance; to care for everything; we encounter.
This must be with a harmless heart full of unlimited love in the greatest peace in acceptance.
See Love don't hurt; thought hurts and speak hurt. Freedom do not hurt only the freedom we
take away from another hurts the freedom' to think or to be who we are as Divine; we're hurt
when we ourselves are disregarded or put aside. Trust don't hurt' yet if we're told lies it hurts
if we're deceived it hurts and if we are neglected it hurts. Friends' do not hurt, only if we stop
being friends or a friend do wrongful things it hurts. Caring never hurts so responsibility will
not hurt. To treat each other just as we would like to be treated do not hurt either. Just Love.
Love being in life and alive. Love the next as ourselves treat all with a deep respect know help
is only an hand reached' out a word that will cut' through a deception of self or others is okay
as it all; must be turned and seen to evolve, reaching out in understanding; that nothing ends
and no'one is truly so wrong that a middle ground can't be found. In our lives today we are so
forced to be, to do as others believe, as we all become; as blindfolded zombies. Just drops all
that we see as too much work too much time, and too much energy, given to any thing at all.
If we do not add to all the old pains, the old rules of what we can do or what we can't do only
see it for what it is agree; to disagree and walk away from any fight live in a harmlessness we
yet has not. Of cause, we can say our meaning; then we must also allow others; the same too.
It don't have to come to fights over rights, that we have done throughout all of times as if we
have learned nothing at all for thousands of years. Fights heal nothing it deadens & it kills all.
Healing comes from Hearts and it flows throughout everything its a Love that surrounds it all
Love can only 'flow' throughout it all.
As nothing will be hidden anymore
I MUST UNDERSTAND
I am not 'Me' any longer. I the I' in Me has merged with everything around me it has grown to
become a different Me. This I or the Me will disappear its becoming new'ness. Constant flows.
Yet, I am still the Me and the I, and often I can feel; just as a You. It depend on what; I do and
what I think. When I am the I, then I; think different I am part of everything, that exist around
me. I am; my body and all my cells, the atoms and the molecules; I see for my inner eye its in
everything, and it is all so alive. When; I am 'Me' I see You and I hear; your talk, your laughter'
I see what 'you' do so I know what you look like' and I know; how you behave/live in your life.
Yet I also see and I do hear my voice and I know how my body; feels and look like as I am Me.
IN; A DIFFERENT WAY
AS I STOOD; SO STILL
To heal my body. Now my mind will be the bridge between the right or wrong, the left or the
right brain will be just one; like the yin or yang knowing of the other yet never separated out
its in a continuous dance where my body and soul is connected by the will of my spirit to not
be separated or never given; a thought, from the me in this I. I am and the me or this ego, in
me who's going to be loved for what I know it to be. Its not the only part of; who I' am' now.
I did not think of it this way before my body reacted to these things out-side of me. I felt me
without any smaller/bigger I, then it was all so close, to my heart all feelings through a body
not through my soul, as this big outer world, and other people was all I knew, and I lived for.
SO AFRAID; TO BE ALIVE
AFRAID TO TRULY LIVE
Being so close to Death so many times having your whole body turned inside and out, just to
survive changes everything. No-one and No-thing; will ever be the same. As my body fought
for survival my soul stepped fort in me; took hold of my will, and my spirit and together with
my mind we became whole every time. As my body had enough and wanted to give up a will
so strong set to work in me gathering all the powers from within. Every cell called out' inside
of me my senses changed, to become very focused, on this body of mine it felt this power in
me that only wanted; to survive, pain or no pain it matters not only that precise time: survive
that was it. It felt as I had reached a threshold every time as all was mobilized just to survive.
SO I HAD TO REVIVE IT ALL
CHANGE; WITH MY' TIDES'
My world would change every time, I would be angry and then so grateful that I was still alive.
Life would get back' to normal again until next time I was near things - I had hypersensitivity
to came around and it all started over this fight for survival. I now know this great being I am
as I felt it every time my own physical, psychic being that is this I. I know I''m more than what
my body tells me I am, I am more than my cells my smells my taste my skin my ears and eyes.
I'M more than what I eat and drink or touch I am more than my brain sees as this me in this I'
I have an internal power; it can not be measured; or weighed seen or killed its there, it's there
to be called fort by this me in me to survive, It knows me, and all that; I will ever need' it gave
AS I FOUGHT; TO LEARN
MY CELLS IS REALLY ALIVE
For every time I get an attack' from a molecule; in the air, I do not see coming' or I have never
experienced before I (my body) get flooded & reacting; chemicals' and 'messenger molecules'
they have their own meaning on how to deal with the 'things' they do not like one bit'. Then I
am left en the murk of their aftermath' they affect' everything in my body a mess; terrible too
with my brain by interfering with my hormones (adrenaline and many, many more) Histamine
is a neurotransmitter & is found in our brain tissue too) So as you probably can see one begin
a roller coaster ride that takes days to regulate itself, only if no further triggers, comes along.
In this situation my body takes over here I can't control my moods and how I react to any'one.
I FIGHT TO CAIN CONTROL
CONTROL OF A MIND/BODY
So is our bodies just chemicals that fight? are they' our feelings or beliefs just as fantasies my
mind and body make up so I can survive? Is all just words' made on feelings and thoughts we
give a life give names as realities; that do not really exist? What if this is what happens' in our
left brain to make a sense all what is patterns/boxes its all put into for us to function' proper.
Our right side of the brain then is this neurological powerhouse one that takes over a life/net
in situations of survival an intense awareness/intuition with immediate; insight or perception.
Emerging & re"emerging in life yet the brain heart & breath activity; IS' the proof' in our world
that we're our body then again, what is it that decide who live and who die and what's Divine?
I THINK I KNOW NOW I RE-ACT
AS I SEE IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT
When, we look at just this earth just a body and a cell, a planet, sun, we see not everything at
once, we see only small parts we know nothing; of what exist, dark matter and the; 'junk dna'
fill' up' more of us, & our universe, than we already know, of what exist. Or; we can just begin
to guess' and we can begin to see' yet everything we find out; have always existed here, there
and everywhere. All formed some 17 billion years back and earth has existed only for the last
4.6 billion years I will leave all of this to your imagination as that truly is all we now can do at
this time so much is found out everyday much is coming to light & much more to understand.
Life is life and Life is much much more than we'll ever know or believe. Yet only Time will tell.
ITS THAT I NOW UNDERSTAND
All is being unveiled in/outside of All
AND IF WE ASK; WE WILL; GET ANSWERS
How much difference, is there really in life?
How much are we ourselves able to change things?
' Make a clean slate, washing it all Clean'
As so many others with life-altering dis-eases do find
we are put to a side we are set outside or caught inside ourselves:
We are forgotten, yet we are so alive; as we feel' it all.
All this; I find so depriving so isolating so difficult to live.
I know they all say this can't be healed yet I am going to try anyway and
make it RIGHT THIS TIME AROUND FOR ALL TOO to live.
We're 'The Bubble People' the Canary; warning of dangers.
We are the ones who now are the fore-runners the way-showers to you
as things in this world; is not right its dangerous, to health.
>>>>>>>>>>the things that affect us <<<<<<<<<<
Its made right' from a heart' from all our hearts borne' to life.
My page is being re-created just as I Am in my life this moment of time.
All will be updated with all the new asIi have turned, the tide.
I WILL NOT ACCEPT 'CELL POSION' INTO ME, YET I'M
TRYING NOT TO BE TOO ISOLATED AND FEEL; ALL SO ALONE
ITS ALL ABOUT HOW I NOW TRULY LIVE; MY LIFE
RE-NEW, RE-CREATE, RE-SHAPE AND LIVE AS HEALED
MAKE IT COME FORT, FROM DEEP; IN MY HEART.
BY MY OWN WILL TO BE COMPLETELY; HEALED
HEAL AGAINST THE ODDS, HEAL IT ALL; IN MY HEART
SEEING IT ALL DIFFERENT AND BY DEEP LOVE'
FIRST I FEEL I MUST TRY TO CLEAR MY LUNGS
HEAL MY INTEStINES AND MY SKIN CLOSE MY
NOSE AND MOUTH FOR THESE THINGS CELLS
REMEMBER AN ACT UPON, CLEAR BRAIN'FOG'
FOR MAYBE THEN!
I CAN START TO HEAL PROPER
YET I ALSO KNIOW!
WHEN; THE PENDULUM HAS TURNED AWAY
FROM DEFENSE AND INTO A PROTECTIVE STATE; ALL IS
DIFFERENT AS OUR BODIES REACT TO IT ALL.
WHEN; OUR LUNGS BECOME; HYPERSENSITIVE
THEY REACT WITHOUT DISCERNMENT TO EVERYTHING
AS OUR CELLS; MOUNT AN ATOMIC WAR IN US
LUNGS; PLAY A HUGE PART IN OUR HEALTHY
LIVES AS THEY ARE ABLE TO FILTER THINGS AWAY FROM
THE REST PROTECT OUR BLOOD OR A BODY
SO EASY SEEN AGAINST; A SWINE FLU OUTBREAK
IF YOU HAVE READ MY PAGES; SYMPTOMS AND HEALTH
YOU CAN MAKE ANOTHER PICTURE OF OUR LIFE
WE ARE ISOLATED TOO? AS NOT' TO GET SICK'
BECAUSE, IT IS SO; LIFE' THREATENING; NONE STOP TO
US ALSO' FROM OTHER THINGS; LIKE THE FLU'
SEEING THESE MANY PEOPLE TOO FRIGHTENED.
STARTED TO WEAR A MASK, SO NOT TO GET THIS FLU'
SUDDENLY; THEY CAME TO LIVE IN OUR SHOES.
WALKING; OUR SO HIDDEN' ROADS
AS THEY WERE MEETING; OUR DANGERS
SEE ITS NOT ALONE THE LATEX OR CHEMICALS.
IT IS VIRUSES ITS FOODS AND EVERYTHING AROUND
AS OUR BODIES; FIGHT AGAINST; THE SLIGHTEST THING
AS IT SET OUR BODIES FROM HIGH ALERT TO FIGHT
WHEN WE REACH THIS 'BUBBLES; PEOPLE STAGE'
LIVING REAL ISOLATED; TO HAVE; ANY LIFE.
WE ARE; KNOWN ABOUT; NOT SEEN
ALL THAT WE SPREAD AROUND US WITHOUT ANY THOUGHT
JUST MY BODY IS SAYING STOP POLLUTING ME; STOP SPOILING ALL I AM
IT IS AGAINST THESE ODDS, I WILL DO MY BEST TO HEAL TO CALM MY DODY DOWN?
CALMING IT DOWN TO A STAGE WHERE I CAN LIVE WITH IT ALL AGAIN
WHERE I CAN EAT AND BREATHE WITH YOU EVERYDAY TOO
WHERE WHAT COMES INTO MY BODY DO NOT START A WAR.
AS I PRODUCE THIS HEALTHY PICTURE IN MY MIND I SEND IT TO MY CELLS
THAT ALL IS AS CALM & AS HEALTHY AS IT POSSIBLE CAN BE NOW IN MY BODY, SOUL
No now I do not see, this world through my protective bubble
AS I LOOK FORWARD; TO MEET YOU ALL, IN A REAL' LIFE'
'yes I so look forward to that day I again can breathe'
THE DAY, I CAN FINALLY LEAVE; ALL MY BUBBLES BEHIND
THAT HAS NOT BEEN POSSIBLE YET, I DO FEEL BETTER THOUGH, AS I HAVE COME ACROSS A
NEW 'TREATMENT' I NOW USE AN ELANRA IONIZER IN MY HOME AND THAT' HAS HELPED ME
ENORMOUS I CAN BREATHE MUCH BETTER NOW; I HAVE STARTED TO ENJOY MY LIFE AGAIN.
IF IT WILL BE A CURE; I DO NOT KNOW, YET JUST TO FEEL BETTER; IS TRULY A BLISS A RELIEF.
SO FOR NOW I TRULY FEEL BLESSED. EVEN I HAVE ALMOST LOST MY SIGHT; IN THE LEFT EYE
FROM A TERRIBLE ENCOUNTER; AN ALLERGY REACTION; ALL ITCHY, TEARS, SPOTS & SORES'
APPARENTLY IT HAS AFFECTED THE TISSUE, IN MY EYE FOR NOW, I STILL HOPE IT WILL HEAL.
OTHERWISE; ALL IS AS IT IS AND HAS BEEN; FOR SO LONG. TRUTH IS; ACCEPTANCE DO HELP
FOR SEE, A GREAT UNDERSTAND, COMES TO ME & US ALL; IN ANY; NOW
PLEASE; DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY, AND LIVE YOUR LIFE!
TO THE BEST OF ALL POSSIBILITIES TO BRING IN A NEW UNDERSTANDING
WE ARE ALL GUILTY IN THE SPOILIG OF OUR EARTH' OUR AIR AND WATER
OUR FOOD & SOILS OUR ANIMALS AND ALL THE INSECTS
WE HAVE DONE THAT IN JUST ONE HUNDRED YEARS 6 BILLION YEARS OF
FOR WE ALL REACH THIS PLACE; SOMETIMES IN OUR LIVES
WE PRAY OR WE ASK FOR HELP WE RETURN TO
THE UNKNOWN, YET SOUL-KNOWN
GOING BACK TO OUR FAITH
THAT ALL IS AS IT IS
SO WE HEAL
SEE I AM ON A JOURNEY; A JOURNEY TO HEAL; WHAT I AM AND WHAT I SEE, AROUND ME.
A HEALING JOURNEY, THAT HAS TAUGHT ME SO MUCH ESPECIALLY ABOUT HOW TO LIVE.
I KNOW THERE IS MUCH WORSE THINGS IN THIS WORLD AND YES' PEOPLE STILL SURVIVE'
I AM 'HYPERSENSITIVE' TO THIS WORLD; AROUND ME, YES' I DO FEEL VERY SENSITIVE' TO
MY WORLD & THE WORLD, I COME IN CONTACT WITH. IT USED TO HURT ME NONE STOP
NOW I FEEL; I CAN CONNECT FROM PEACE, FROM A
DIFFERENT PLACE IN ME; A PLACE, WHERE THINGS ARE ALWAYS ALRIGHT SO I NEED NOT
TO DISAPPEAR OR HIDE, AS I TRY TO MAKE SOME SENSE, OUT OF MY LIFE. IN SENSITIVITY
I FEEL, I SEE, I HEAR, I SENSE, EVERY-THING AROUND ME, IN PEACE, I CAN FEEL SERENE, I
OPEN, TO A NEW KNOWING'NESS, OUT OF ALL THE CHAOS; THAT HAS BEEN MY' LIFE FOR
MANY YEARS NOW. I HAVE ARRIVED IN ANOTHER REALITY AS I CAN BE WHO' I AM' FULLY.
THERE IS NO ANGER ANYMORE, THERE IS NO FRUSTRATION; THERE IS ONLY THE PEACE I
CREATE AROUND ME' IN EVERY NOW. I CAN STILL HELP PEOPLE EVEN ITS JUST THROUGH
COMPUTERS OR BY PHONE I DO NOT FEEL SO LONELY/ISOLATED ANY'MORE I CAN FULLY
DECIDE, WHEN I WANTS TO STEP OUT INTO A WORLD THAT I' DO NOT FEEL I BELONG IN'
ANYMORE. YET I' KNOW THAT I DO, AND I MAKE IT LIKE' THE ULTIMATE TRAVEL' EXPERI-
ENCE, AS I TAKE EVERY'THING; DEEP INTO MY' SOUL, ITS AS IF I WOULD NEVER SEE' IT IN
THE FUTURE THROUGH I KNOW FULLY WELL THAT I WILL I JUST TREASURE MY LIFE MORE
THEREFORE I MUST SAY MY THANKS TOO & FIRST;
TO MY SON I GIVE THANKS FOR YOUR CARE AND YOUR THOUGHTFULNESS, YOU'RE THE
BEST, YOU HAVE GIVEN SO MUCH THROUGHOUT THE YEARS YOU WAS ALWAYS NEAR IN
THOUGHT & HEART' YOU' HAVE YOUR' OWN' FAMILY' TO ATTEND TO; WE FEEL BLESSED
AS THIS MEAN WE TOO HAVE GOT EXTRA' LIFE' AROUND US; TO BRING' JOYMENT' NOW
WE DO CARE JUST AS YOU ITS WHAT FAMILY IS ALL ABOUT ITS LOVE GIVEN & RECEIVED.
TO MY FAMILY' I TOO WILL GIVE THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE WITH GREAT HOPE.
FRIENDS THAT NEVER LEFT WHO CALL FOR A CHAT, EVEN THE DAYS I'M NOT THE BEST'
SO HERE I AM, I FEEL I AM CLOSER TO EVERYTHING; WITH A LIFE, NOT YET FULLY HEALED;
Know all the frightening shadows' has disappeared
by; the power of light and love
I have seen this light' I turned on this flow' of life'
replaced by a new knowledge' a new realization' that one do' all can'
I AM STILL ALIVE
SO THEREFORE I KNOW THAT I OWE
LIFE; TO MY' MATE'
2 HEARTS' BEAT' AS 1
WE WILL HEAL ALL
HE NEEDS ME NOW, SO I'M THERE!
I AM STILL ALIVE'
I will' be; for as long; as' I' can'
it is my promise; to 'my dear love' he's my' life'
as he too; has his' part' to' play'
He; who stand by me; and support me, none stop
So I will be there; to support him too & none stop
He; now too has; to find this healing flow; in'side.
So I will hold his hand as we reach up, none stop
He deserve the best of the best to live none stop
and from the divinity that lives in my heart & soul
I WILL SUPPORT WHERE I CAN I WILL GIVE MY LOVE
and let it flow through all I now know, to help you
but you also understood what needed to be done
you can heal yourself and by the dr's help
WE WILL TRUST
its by y'our'my own will' to be' healed'
and by the help; I Get from my prayers'
AS HIS STEM CELL TRANSPLANT HAS WORKED WONDERS'
THERE IS NO SIGN OF A CANCER IN HIS BODY WE WILL DO OUR BEST TO KEEP IT UP
UNFORTUNATELY TOO LATE FOR ANOTHER OF MY HEROES IN LIFE'
HE LOOKED INSIDE TO LOOK OUTSIDE TO GIVE HIS VISION LIFE TO HEAL OTHERS
YET WAS IT NOT FOR HIS VISION & THOUGHTS OF US ALL;
nothing would have happened so quickly '
MY SUPER HERO MY SUPERMAN WAS BLESSED BY ANOTHER SUPERMAN SUPER HERO
WHO FOUGHT SO BRAVELY; FOR THIS RESEARCH TO COMMENCE THAT SAVED MY HUSBAND
CHRISTOPHER REEVE STARTED THE WHEEL IN EARNEST FOR LIFESAVING RESEARCH
WHAT HAS BEEN ACHIEVED THESE LAST YEARS, REGARDING STEM CELLS I'M NOT SPEAKING
OF THE EARLY EMBRYO STEM CELLS EITHER; IS JUST SO INSPIRING & SO INCREDIBLE
SCIENCE BOUNCE FORT; AS NEVER BEFORE AND WE AS PEOPLE CAN HELP CONTROL THAT
ALL NEW KNOWLEDGE IS NOT BEING ABUSED BUT BECOMES GOOD FOR HUMANITY.
WE ARE TRULY BLESSED BY WHAT ALWAYS WAS A DIVINE HELP
HEALED AND WELL HE LIVES
( I KNOW HIS JOURNEY IS PRIVATE AND FOR HIM TO WALK, YET I WILL' BE BY HIS SIDE)
'you too will maybe one day hear about 'his' journey too through the healing well'
yet its better; that he' tells' you his' story' his pain & suffering to be healed'
know there is no secrets, only the free will, to open the heart to Love.
WE ALL GET EXACTLY WHAT WE NEED; TO EVOLVE' IN' LIFE'
I truly feel in my heart, that I have been, very Blessed
I can do anything, I put my mind to I can' also heal
I have learned, so much, about life and my soul
I know, that Love' can heal and lives do grow'
I now also know, our evolution' is; personal'
THEREFORE I CAN NOW SAY:
I will open my heart to a full Life
no matter, what anyone do think
we only get what we need to be
ABLE TO CHANGE OUR LIFE
FOR I DO FEEL SO FREE SO FREE AGAIN
THEREFORE I AM READY TO HELP MY MAN
NOW, I HAVE DISCOVERED THAT I AM, VERY BLESSED
A BLESSING; I WILL GIVE, TO MY' LOVED'
SO HE TOO CAN FEEL SO FREE' FREE'
OF THE KIND OF LIFE THAT DID BECOME HIS & MINE
WE ARE LOVED SO MUCH
AND WE FEEL;
' like a little child again'
THAT NOW HAS TO START IN LIFE
WITH NEW THINGS TO EXPLORE & FIND
TO CONQUR AND UNDERSTAND
YES WE FEEL BLESSED
AS WE GIVE OUR THANKS TO ALL.
I PERSONALLY KNOW, I HAVE NO MORE FEARS, OR TEARS.
ONLY A DEEP PEACE IS SURROUNDING MY SOUL
KNOWING I HAVE COME FAR AND THAT I CAN REACH' OUT WITH THE ENERGY
THAT OVERRUN FROM MY CELLS OUT THROUGHOUT' MY BODY THROUGH ALL
BLENDED THEN CALMED SEEN FOR WHAT IT TRULY ALSO COULD BE FOR SOUL.
A TURNING POINT; A RE'TURN TO THE ORIGINAL POWER' OF NO DIS-EASE NO
MORE PAINS OR SUFFERING AS I AM ALWAYS PROTECTED BY MY OWN CELLS IN
THE LIGHTNING FAST PACE; OF THIS REACTION' ITS JUST RESPONDING TO ALL
THAT SURROUND ME IN ANY NOW; THESE MAGNETIC POWERS THAT SHOW US
EITHER IT REPEL' OR' IT DRAW' IT' ALL' INSIDE; LIKE ALLERGIES & THE CANCER
ITS FROM THIS UNDERSTANDING HEALING COMES;
THE OUTER' POWERS IS THE CLEAN AIR' AIR WITHOUT POLLUTION, THAT HAS
NOW CLEARED; MY LUNGS, I HAVE ALMOST, NO' MORE BLOCKS' MUCUS' EVEN
MY COUGHS' HAS ALMOST STOPPED AS I HAVE THE POWER TO KEEP MY LUNG
CLEAR AND CLEAN. THE TIMES; I THEN GET HIT' WITH SOMETHING' MY BODY'
IS ABLE TO RECUPERATE MUCH, MUCH FASTER THAN FOR MY LAST 10 YEARS.
NOW THAT TRULY FIT WITH THE 'KEEP AWAY FROM WHAT THAT AFFECT YOU'
AS THE ONLY CURE! IT HAS TAKEN A LONG TIME TO REALIZE THAT EVEN THE
'NORMAL AIR, FOOD OR EVERYTHING AROUND WAS TOO MUCH FOR MY BODY
NOW I BREATHE ONLY PRISTINE AIR AS NEGATIVE IONS'
I DO THANK YOU ALL, FOR BEING THERE FOR ME ALWAYS
'WHEN THE LIGHTNING & THUNDER ROLLED SO NEAR'
when I was so angry; and extremely confused, like at war!
WITH EVERY MOLECULE AROUND ME
Even with my God and; with this whole Wide World.
THIS HAS ALL BEEN HEALED BY A DEEP UNDERSTANDING I RECEIVED
TO MY HUSBAND TO MY LOVE TO MY SOUL' MATE'
THE BIGGEST THANK YOU
YOU MADE SURE;
I ALWAYS FELT SAFE, I ALWAYS KNEW' YOU KNEW'
YOU WAS READY IN HEART & BY YOUR HANDS:
I'M ALWAYS SO SAFE; YOU' WAS/IS THERE'
with a needle & oxygen; meds' & comfort'
you; just give' and give' none stop
until the day; I need no more.
I did take your help. Now I Give
with all of my heart and soul; I Love You
NOW THE TIDE HAS TURNED SO DO KNOW
I TOO WILL BE THERE FOR YOU & ALL THE WAY
WE CAN; OVER'COME & WE' CAN LIVE' WITH IT ALL.
NOW I TOO WILL' BE' THERE' TO HELP' YOU'
NOT WITH NEEDLES OR OXYGEN I WILL GIVE' ALL
THROUGH MY THOUGHTS IN CONSCIOUSNESS' I SPEAK
NOT OF DIS-EASE ONLY OF THE HEALTHY CELL' ENERGY IN
YOU TO HELP YOU BY THE FRUIT BY MOUTH LIFE IS FILLED BY THE
POWER WE HAVE OVER LIFE & DEATH AS WE GET ALL BACK AS WE DO
CREATE BY OUR THOUGHT FEELINGS AND SPEECH OUR DREAMS AND WISH.
I WILL BUILD MY PYRAMID OF HEALING TO SURROUND YOU TO BOOST ALL CELLS
AS THEY WILL RECALL' THE HOME AN ENERGY OF HEALING, THAT IS GIVEN BY GOD'
TOGETHER I KNOW, WE CAN FIND BACK INTO THE BALANCE WE LOST ALONG OUR LIVES
LIVES CRAMPED OR SQUEEZED WITH DISTRACTIONS OF ALL THAT HAPPENED' TOO
THINGS THAT NEVER WAS OURS TO WORRY ABOUT 1' OF US REJECTED, IT ALL.
THE OTHER TOOK IT ALL INSIDE & KEPT IT IGNORED IT WHERE IT BEGAN
TO GROW & GROW. IN ONE OF US ALL WAS REJECTED' SPURTED OUT
THROUGH TEARS & PAINS. IN THE OTHER IT WAS ALLOWED' TO
BUILD/CHANGE; FROM AN INSIDE OUT; IT GREW & GREW'
KNOW' YOU ARE ALWAYS, PART OF MY' SOULS LOVE'
LIKE YOU TRULY' DID HELP' ME; I' TOO' WILL'
HELP YOU THROUGH THE QUEST FOR
A NEW WAY.
FOR; ALL YOU DID
ALL YOU; HAD TO LEARN
FOR BY ALL THE LOVE YOU GAVE
ALSO MADE YOUR PHYSICAL HEART BIGGER.
YOUR CELLS TOOK THE PAINS AS'
THROW' STONES' IN WATER
YET NOT; DROWNING
SEEING MY PAIN
MAKING A STILLNESS SCREAM'
SO NOW WE HAVE REAL REASONS TO BE THE
BEST WE CAN; FOR EACH OTHER. I DO HAVE
THE BIGGEST URGES, TO USE ALL MY POWER
A FOUND SOURCE A DIVINITY ALWAYS MINE'
TO HELP' BY GIVE YOU SUPPORT' FROM DEEP
IN MY SOUL & IN ALL I CAN POSSIBLE' DO TO
LETTING; YOUR STRESSED HEART; RE'COVER.
HELPING HEALING YOUR CANCEROUS CELLS.
I OWE YOU MY OWN LIFE TO YOUR EFFORTS.
IT'S MY WISHES I CAN DO A SAME FOR YOU.
SO WE' CAN BE RUNNING, IN A JOY
A'GAIN WITH SMILING HEARTS
'YES' YOU ARE; ON YOUR WAY!
ONCE MORE LAUGHTER RINGING OUT
I WILL BE THERE EVERY SECOND, EVERY DAY'
AS WE GO' FROM THE BLACK OR WHITE INTO
A HEALING' TIME ONCE MORE THIS TIME IT'S
THE CELL' POWERS OF WILL' AND THOUGHTS
HEALING YOUR HEART MAKING SURE YOU'LL'
BE ALRIGHT AS WE' HAVE BECOME THE BEST
TEAM. WE'RE BOTH ABLE TO READ SORROW'
PAINS; EVEN BEFORE IT SURFACES INTO LIFE
THIS TIME; WE TURN' IT' ALL AROUND HEAL.
WE QUICKLY' TURN' BAD' INTO; GOOD AND'
THE BIGGEST RAINBOW-SMILE
WE SEE IN THE SKIES'
IN THIS SO NEW' WORLD; OF OURS
THAT FEELS' LIKE THE PURE GOLD
CHANGED' INTO NEW AWARENESS
AN AWARENESS THAT THERE WAS
IS MUCH' MORE; TO UNDERSTAND
THAT WHAT IS FOUND; IN WORLD
SCIENCE, DOCTORS; MEDICATION
HEALING COMES FROM IN'SIDE OF
ONE & REALIZING HOW' WE' NOW'
MUST HEAL' ALL' THAT WE' HAVE
CREATED' AS POISON IN'AROUND
THIS WORLD AND BY' OURSELVES'
WE HAVE STEPPED OFF THE OLD'
FOR WE KNOW! WE HAVE A BEAUTIFUL LIFE
WHERE, WE BOTH JUST LOVE BEING TOGETHER IT IS
A LIFE WE KNOW CAN BE; LIKE WAKING ON PURE & SOFT GOLD
YET IT DO/CAN SWALLOW US UP IN A SECOND IF WE'RE NOT FULLY AWARE
SO WE ARE LIVING MORE CONSCIOUS NOW WITH EVERYTHING AROUND US TOO
WE'RE BOTH FEELING VERY BLESSED WE HAVE LEARNED TO COPE
WE ARE, SO ENORMOUSLY LUCKY; WE HAVE EACH OTHER
WE'RE NOT AFRAID OF LOOSING OUR LIVES' SO WE
WILL LIVE FULLY, EVERY SECOND; IN' A LOVE'
WE WILL REACH OUT TO ALL THIS WAY
FOR WE HAVE BOTH BEEN TAUGHT, SO MUCH THROUGH LIVING.
WE DO UNDERSTAND; THERE IS ALWAYS GIVEN US HELP; TO COPE WITH ALL
WE GET; WE JUST NEED TO REALIZE THAT WE ARE ALWAYS SAFE.
SO, THE NEW LIFE, WE CREATED, CAN NOW GROW AND EVOLVE, THAT IS BLISSFUL' AND FLUID'
FOR WE KNOW THAT
WHEN ALL IS SAID & DONE; THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS IN LIFE, THAT WE DO ENJOY OUR LIFE'
NO MATTER WHAT IS OURS TO LIVE
FOR WE MAKE IT A DANCE ON ROSES. OR WE CURSE IT OR BLAME OUR SORROWS, ON OTHERS
WE SHARE' 2' ENDS' OF THE SAME' ORIGIN, THE SAME BALANCE' POINT THAT MUST BECOME 1'
ONE' IN UNDERSTANDING; OF THE WALLS, WE PUT UP OR PULL DOWN FOR; OUR PROTECTION'
I AM ALWAYS WITH MY LOVED ONE
FOR NOW WE CAN ONLY FEEL BLESSED, WE STILL HAVE' EACH OTHER.
WE HAVE FAMILY & FREINDS WE CAN TRUST; TO GIVE A HAND
I KNOW; YOU LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM AS I ALWAYS
ALSO LOVED YOU FOR EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE
TOGETHER WE DANCE, IN TO A NEWNESS
A NEW'NESS WE NOW HAVE BECOME,
2' THAT WILL BALANCE IT OUT 1'
ALL T'HIS' TAUGHT' ME/US
TO BE IN A CONSTANT GRATITUDE
... AND ALSO; SOMETHING ELSE! ...
This page was last updated on the 11/11/11
THE DAY I REACHED; YET ANOTHER 'CROSSROAD' IN UNDERSTANDING' MY LIFE
I AM HUMBLE BY THE CONCERNS FROM EVERYONE, ALL I DID WAS WARN EVERYONE' OF LATEX
I AM SO HONORED AND GRATEFUL' FOR ALL THE LOVE I ALWAYS RECEIVE; IT MAKE ME GO ON.
I AM STILL WILLING & VERY COMMITTED TO FIND A CURE TO THIS FROM THE INSIDE AND OUT.
THIS SITE; WAS/IS MY HEALING JOURNEY. I THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE FOR ME.
I/WE STILL HAVE WINDING ROADS IN FRONT OF ME/US BUT NOW THEY GIVE NEW LIFE
THIS PAGE THIS SITE IS FOR THE HEALING THAT SURFACE ALL OVER THE EARTH NOW
ALL IS BEING RE'TURNED; TO FIND THIS TRUTH' OF WHY WE/YOU/THEY ARE HERE TO
RE'CREATE ALL; THAT WE HAVE SPOILED, BY THIS WAY, WE LIVE UNCONSIOUS IN LIFE'
TO CHANGE IT INTO A MINDFUL WAY OF LIFE RE'MIND IN LOVE BY JOY BUILDING ALL'
'BEGIN A LIFE, THAT WILL BE COMPLETLY DIFFERENT'
OH YO HAVE TOO, WE ARE ALL ON THE ROAD AS WE GO FORWARD SO FAST
I am with you and you with me together we can conquer all with the power; of soul' doubled'
YOU FEEL/THINK YOU HAVE FAR' TO GO! WE'RE THERE; AS' SOON' WE' KNOW'
WE'RE CLOSER THAN WE THINK; HEARTS ARE THE ONLY 1' WHO KNOW' HOW
for I see further than ever before not much can throw a spanner in 'my wheels' I've tried it all
I FEEL A NEWNESS, A BALANCE THAT DO HOLD MY HEAD HIGH OVER WATERS
ITS ALL ABOUT US & HOW MOTHER EARTH IS CONSTANTLY ALIVE-RESHAPING'
We live in a very special time and if we put our ear to mother earth we can hear her calls too
TO HEAL BODY/MIND ITS; WHAT I FEE'L IS THE MOST IMPORTANT TO LIVE BY.
OUR LIVES & OUR TIMES; IS FAR TOO PRECIOUS; TO FIGHT' EVERY'THING' AROUND US NOW
PLEASE JUST TURN MY MUSIC OFF BELOW WHILE WATCHING THESE TWO WONDERFUL; CLIP'
IT IS WHEN WE REALIZE' THAT WE ARE HERE FOR A REASON AND TIME HAS COME TO HEAL
BODY & SOUL; WE ALL HAVE HEALING TO DO IN OUR WORLD
Please just turn my music off at the end of this page to watch these Movies
all life is holy & precious
please cherish our beautiful earth
feel blessed to be part of this huge universe
I THANK YOU; FOR YOUR VISIT
SO ARE WE JUST ONE AND ONE AND ONE OR - ARE WE ALL INTER'NET'CONNECTED AS ONE?
'ALWAYS CONNECTED THROUGH THE WEB' THAT IS OF ALL OF EARTH'
CONNECT; VIA TRANSPORT
OR VIA THE SOLAR STORMS
PHONE LINES - POWER LINES
MOBILE PHONES 'FACEBOOK'
SHOWING OUR FEELINGS
FEELINGS OF GOOD OR BAD
ON INTER'NET ALL IS SHOWN US
IN A WISDOM OR AS STUPIDITY
IN RELIGION AS SCIENCE
IN LONELINESS OR ISOLATION
PROTECTING OF THIS EARTH
SAVING US ALL
OR CHARGING & RE'CHARGING
WE CAN TRAVEL IN THOUGHTS OR BY OUR OWN FANTASY
A NEW FUTURE?
WHERE WE TRULY RE'CONNECT
DOING AN OPPOSITE
SEEING ALL BACK TO FRONT
ARE WE USING A BRAIN A MIND OR HEART
IN LOVE AND LIGHT
GIVE OUR HEALING FORM
FOR DEEP DOWN; WE DO INTERCONNECT IT ALL BY OUR HEART,
'WE CAN BE HELPING HANDS'
FOR WE CAN SEE THE COLORS, THE LIGHT & SHADOWS, THE LOVE TURN; ALL TO PEACE
THIS EARTH IS ONE
WE JUST NEED TO SEE IT THEN WE KNOW IT IS TRUE
ITS NOT ME ITS WE
LET'S TRADE THE ME FOR THE WE
LET'S SPREAD THE LIGHT ALL A'GAIN
THESE GEMS THAT I HAVE FOUND HAVE HELPED ME NO END TO LEARN TO LIVE FULLY AGAIN
A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out… ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.
You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you… and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are… and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.
01 Awakening Soul Spirit
You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself… and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.
You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you.
So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself… and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties… and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.
You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for you next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn - that ‘alone’ does not mean lonely.
it means you are spiritual growing ...
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn - to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You also stop working so hard - at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.
You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise.
You learn; that being tired fuels doubt, fear & uncertainty, and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels the soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for its that wishing for something; to happen is different than working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.
You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.
You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people… and you lean not to always take it personally.
You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You lean that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.
Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than you heart’s desire.
You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
Finally, with courage in you heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can
and then you just let it go to be what it can be.
There is no easy road, to enlightenment
Enlightenment - is a destructive process.
It has nothing to do with becoming better
or being happier.
Enlightenment is the
crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing
through the facade of pretense. It’s the
complete eradication of everything we
imagined to be true.
Make no bones about it, awakening is not a walk in the park. It is a ride through hell. It is the tearing down of all of your cherished beliefs and everything you thought about yourself. There is no way around this..
We go through life with so many false notions – of the world, of spirituality and of ourselves. We build up masks and we believe the facades. It’s all a charade. It is all based upon illusions and deceit. We deceive ourselves at every moment, and the world also deceives us at every moment. We live in perpetual cognitive dissonance, justifying the most absurd things in our minds. We constantly lie to ourselves…. and we believe it.
To awaken to the truth that you seek, you must tear down the lies.
But we are too attached to the lies. We want to hold on to the illusions and to become enlightened at the same time. That is not possible. But there are hundreds of phony gurus and “spiritual teachers” that will tell you it is. They offer you processes to become happy, fulfilled, calm, find your soulmate, be positive, get the right job, make lots of money, balance the chakras, become healthy and whatever else you may be desiring. This has nothing to do with awakening. This is only polishing the ego. They all lead you right back into the matrix. You may even be lucky enough to get a golden cage, but it is still a cage, and you remain imprisoned in slavery. This is the road that most people choose to follow. This road is well traveled by the herd....
Most people want to remain in the herd, as they find comfort in the company of other deluded souls. It takes a certain individual to break free of the herd. The Siddhartha road is not easy. It is a treacherous road that will shatter every part of your existence. No, it takes a certain type of person to walk that road; a person that is willing to give up everything to find his true Self.
Everything came crashing down at once....
I had to be brutally honest - with myself. Eventually, I came; to the point of realizing that I hated my broken body, I hated this world, I hated myself, and I really hated God. Yes, I was very angry at him. HE abandoned me. I felt the entire world abandoned me. It wasn’t fair...
And then a very powerful voice spoke to me. From where this voice came from, I do not know. It said, - “Just surrender to the suffering” That was it. So I thought about it. I realized that I was not accepting what was happening to me. I was - fighting it. I was trying - to push away this suffering, but it was obviously - not working. So I followed the message, and surrendered to the suffering, that which is.
The suffering felt endless, yet I endured it. I don’t even know how to explain it. And then on the morning in 2004, I woke up. Not to a new year, but a new life. I clearly remember that same voice saying as a awoke --- welcome back ...... Then The Suffering Was Gone, all was forgiven, and I was at peace. A new peace - that I had never known before. No I was not healed - I had been changed - I remember the singing of the birds, and the sun entering - through the window, and everything around me was seen - in a new light – a light of awe and amazement. My mind - had ceased its chatter, of only the hurt I was experiencing a very deep peace.
Yes I still feel pain and I can also feel hurt - yet not in the mega way I felt it before ... it's just small waves on the calm sea - disappearing as fast as they arrive ... I have bursted the bubble I thought was my life...
Then the largest wave came to me a couple of weeks into this. As I was first being Grateful for my; 'New Life' I preceded to meditating, and I went so deep, following, the river of life - to the depths; of my Being. I was empty, but then from this emptiness, a powerful divine love sprang forth, inundating my entire mind and body. This love is total unconditional. It spreads out - from me everywhere. All, of the bugs, the lizards, the birds, the plants the trees Yes everything was inundated with this love. I could not tell where I ended, or the other Beings began. We were all - intrinsically connected with this - great love; and yet my individual Self; remained. I was not - the bugs, the birds or the plants, but the connection was so deep, that I felt, they were as if a part of me. There was simultaneously; separation and no separation. It is not very easy to describe, but this divine love is nothing like the love of this world.
See when you do awaken, and you do see the world with new eyes, you soon realize that no one else is seeing the same thing. I tried to tell, a few people - what had happened to me, but no one - believed me. They thought that perhaps I just cracked under the pressure of suffering and had gone total crazy. No one wanted to hear anything I said, as it exposed their false beliefs. So I remained quiet for eight years.
Now I will speak out and I do speak out and you are all free to take from this - what you feel right - even to let it all pass your by ...
How can I possibly explain - something so deep, beyond - the mind, where people have no concepts or understanding? What I woke up to I call Knowings, as opposed - to knowledge. Knowledge - comes from outside - of the Self, either from the world, or from “up above”. Knowings are who you truly are. It is not like a new information, but rather an awakening to your true Self.
Someone who has not awakened to his true Self has a difficult time understanding. They believe - it is just knowledge, a different set of beliefs. Therefore people say things like, “That is your idea of Truth. It’s different from mine.” or “There is no absolute Truth, only relative truths.” They think - they are only my beliefs. It's quite pointless - to explain this to people, because all they know, is beliefs. So I remain alone, with but a few friends - that have experienced their own dark night of the soul, and awakened to their true Self, if sometimes only as a glimmer. Yes - That Is all it takes - for one to see - that there is
a deep consciousness separate from the vast majority of people.
I cannot; take any credit - for my awakening. I was dragged, kicking and screaming, I was so hurt and I was, grasping straws. No, I take no credit. It was by Grace alone.
Grace is within you. Grace is your Self. Know that Grace is not ever something - to be acquired from others. If it is external, it is useless. All that is necessary is to know its existence is in you. You are never out of its operation - you are never left without --- You leave it alone.
Know, You must simply open to it - to allow Grace to act within you.
As far as an inner transformation is concerned, there is nothing you can do about it. You - cannot transform - yourself, and you certainly cannot - transform your partner - or anybody else. All you can do is create a space for transformation; to happen, for grace and love to enter.
So the choice rests with each of you. No one can do this for you. All I, or anyone else, can do is to offer you some sign posts, pointing in the direction. But it is you and you alone,that must take; that road. It does little good to read my writings - and not act upon them - to not take that road - yourself. Otherwise, you are only hanging out at the signposts, believing that you have already arrived at the destination.
This road is not for the timid or a faint of heart not at all. But there is no other road. No one - will simply wave, a magical wand - over you. It is a road - of destruction; and the question is, “How much are you willing to give up? How much - can you endure?”
Because on this road, you must give up - everything. Every piece of you will shatter. Can you endure that? “You must die to live.” So how serious are you? How much do you want it? How much will you now pay for it? I could cost you your life --- it do cost you your former life ...
You must stand on the > RIVERBANK OF TRUTH < to change your life... Please know too that - My journey - has just started!
WITH THE GREATEST THANK YOU TO ALL IN THIS WORLD WHO HAS INSPIRED ME TO NO END