SO NOW I AM
" LIVING; AS ALREADY HEALED "
FOR WHAT ONE CAN DO ALL CAN DO TOO
SHINING A NEW LIGHT, SEEING ALL AS 'A DIFFERENT PICTURE'
BUILDING NEW BRIDGES
FULL OF LOVE
A NEW KNOWING
BEHIND THE MASK OF LIFE
Finding back to the middle point of it all
From all this pain I received, into a new inner and outer Health.
I will, for I will not stop, to it is achieved
THEREFORE HERE 'IT ALL' COMES AGAIN, IN MY DIFFERENT WORDS.
BEFORE; I GOT THIS HYPERSENSITIVITY, I WAS SO SAD; TO WITNESS
WHAT, WE DID; TO EACH OTHER AND TO THIS WORLD; WE LIVE IN.
I WAS OFTEN SCORNED; FOR BEING 'TOO RIGHTEOUS' WHEN'EVER I
SAW A MISERY; OF FELLOW BEINGS; MISTREATMENT BY ANY POWER.
I SAW SO MUCH PAINS AFFLICTED BY THOUGHTLESSNESS IN MY LIFE
I WAS TOLD TO JUST LET IT GO. SO MY PAIN WENT INSIDE INSTEAD
OF LETTING IT GO; INSTEAD OF LETTING MY TEARS FLOW IN PAIN,
LETTING IT ALL FLOW FREELY TO IT HURT NO MORE, AND TO SEE'
IT FOR; WHAT IT TRULY WAS; STRIPPING IT BARE.
THIS IS THE ONLY WAY; CHANGE COME ABOUT; DO NOT HIDE;
FOR ITS ONLY BY CHANGE; ALL THINGS AROUND, WE CAN RE-CREATE
GIVING 'IT' A NEW LIFE AND FULL COLORS, TO IT ALL
FOR ITS ONLY WE, WHO CAN STOP THINGS IN ITS TRACK, TO LIVE A-GAIN
WHEN WE OPEN OURSELVES TO THE GREAT POWER THAT LIVES IN US ALL
FOR ALL; TO BE SEEN FOR; WHAT IT ALL TRULY IS, SO IT; CAN BE HEALED
SEEN THROUGH THE MINDS EYE SEEN TOGETHER WITH ALL THE DIVINE
WE ARE NEWER LEFT BY THIS POWER IN US IT IS US WHO LEAVE IT BEHIND
IF WE; NEVER SEE IT ALL
FOR SEE, NOW MY CELLS ARE STILL; ALSO READY, YET THEY'RE CALMED
SO I CAN BEGIN TO HEAL
As I have had great help along the way.in this my life I have survived it all and I promise that I
will as the help did not come from the people who should truly know about all these allergies.
Yes I know you maybe have read this before, yet I need; to say a proper farewell; to all of this.
SO I WILL TELL IT AGAIN TO SAY MY PROPER FAREWELL TO BLESS; AND LET IT GO
LET IT ALL FLY AWAY FOREVER
I WILL SEE IT DIFFERENT NOW, TO HEAL IT AND TO BURY MY PAIN LET IT ALL GO
I had never survived was it not for this continuous help I have and I still get so lovingly from
my Husband, and my Family, they together has helped me, no end. Learned; how to give me
all the rescue medication, have looked out for dangers when I could not myself, have helped
no end with; physical and psychological support in my daily life; they are there' for me every
minute of the day no if and no but. Just there no matter what. I thank them from the bottom
of my heart you have given me power to live through this
FOR I CAN STILL TREASURE EVERY DAY AND GET THE BEST OUT OF MY LIFE WITH YOU ALL
you have always cradled me you when I cried and cried, told me to hang' in'
YOUR LOVE AND PROTECTION GRANTED ME COLORS BACK INTO MY LIFE
YOUR LOVE GAVE ME BACK; MY NEW INNER POWER!
AS I SAW; WHAT REALLY MATTERS; NOT THE LOST, FOR I STILL HAD MY INNER POWER
I could not have reached this step in my life without all of them I Love them Unconditionally.
ALL IS ALIVE, ALL CAN CHANGE, ALL IS A PART; OF EVERYTHING ELSE.
IF WE CAN SEE IT OR NOT
THIS POWER THIS ENERGY OF LIFE IS EVERYWHERE
YES WHAT WE SUDDENLY CAN SEE
DID ALWAYS EXIST; ALSO ALL; THE STILL UNSEEN
WHEN WE REALIZE, HOW IT ALL BELONG TOGETHER, YET ALSO A-PART
WE CAN LET THAT GO, WHICH DO NOT FIT INTO WHAT WE ARE; IN ALL
WE CAN TAKE IT UP AND LOOK AT IT FOR THEN TO SAY OUR GOODBYE
WHEN WE REALIZE, WE ARE MUCH. MUCH MORE THAN WE THINK WE'RE
ABOUT DIS-EASE; THESE CHANGES
WE HAVE MADE TO OUR WORLD OUR LIVES OUR FUTURE
WHEN WE HAVE TO LIVE THROUGH MAN-MADE -DIS'EASES OR DEATH
AS I SEE IT ALL AND I DO REMIND YOU ONCE MORE.
Life; is changed, as sickness take over our world; as it takes all.
Remember; when all of this took off, in my life; it was very, very' scary.
It is also something, that still can reach anyone, as more and more use Latex.
This is no trivial dis-ease to cope with, and it comes by so quickly too;
We live our high life; of more, more, faster & faster; as we cry
FOR, NEW CHEMICALS TO BE PRODUCED NONE STOP.
ALL I ASK IS FOR YOU NOW TO BE AWARE
We do/will need a helping hand, we will need protection yet not as a defense of life.
The protection we all is asking for; by regulations and new laws; which still don't help us all.
Life needs to be valued; to be a treasure box of care, of love and of a kindness too.
TO; REACH OUT, WITH A HELPING HAND
...See this; HELP, I received...
came from the people living with me every day who experienced all; the different attacks too.
I didn't survive because we where told the truth from the beginning as that truth where never
complete. I was helped because we stood firm and asked questions none stop everywhere as
different facts then came fort we would use so I could survive. A common sense we tried and
tried it has been such a difficult time, for my family and me without a help, or understanding
from the Doctors at first; so many other people with anaphylaxis too, has discovered in lives.
Just told in the beginning to 'get out quickly' whenever I started to get really sick, no care for
how I managed by myself. Ignorance and fear did cloud their ability, to do all the right things
as their own survival no blame instinct - won out. A truth is always elusive, or can be hidden
in all forms of self if we need to preserve our - state of affairs - in life no matter who we are.
This also often misunderstood. Even if we do see all the facts others view will change it again
IT ONLY HELPED ME IN ALL OF THIS, IF I KNEW A TRUTH
THE TRUTH AS IT TRULY WAS, NEVER HAAD A PART JUST DISMISSED
NOT LOOKING THE TRUTH STRAIGHT IN THE EYE, AND STILL NOT SEE IT ALL.
A SILENCE OR; OR NO INFORMATION, CAN EASILY MEAN A DEATH FOR SOME
ALSO HERE WE SEE THESE SIMILARITIES TO THE HIV/AND AIDS
WHICH TRULY IS THE OPPOSITE END OF THIS.
A Hypersensitivity; any allergy reaction to proteins or chemicals and with asthma thrown into
this mix do confuse plus as anaphylaxis, include a broad spectrum of all of the reactions too,
It will all depend so much on our own bodies - at any time - by any amount we are triggered.
Attacks can happen so very quickly or slow, as anaphylaxis will take any life in just a very few
minutes or it can be prolonged over hours even days. So these reactions;will not always warn
anyone of how sick we truly are, as even some doctors; get fooled. If we have the very hoarse
voice and are missing sounds people do not think that we have a severe throat swelling, even
our chest tightness or pain is not always picked up if we at he same time cough none stop so
difficult in breathing is taken for given in such a situation and we are often just offered water.
CAN'T BREATHE, NO AIR
TIME, FOR US IS RUNNING OUT
For we've begun this slide; this allergic slide we do not know when or where it will stop in us.
Eyes - noses just runs; a funny pulse, or itchy spots that's not seen, because of clothes if we
then also get agitated because we're fighting for our life - have just been helped; by our own
body by a huge release of adrenaline our brain and nervous system too is affected. Yes we're
frightened when we reach this stage for we know how urgent; we need help, yet maybe we're
not able to tell you just how bad the situation has become for us; if reactions then has come
about by a food allergy or if its just taking off completely'; we will also begin to vomit and we
are rendered completely helpless our body is now fighting for survival; shutting us down; we
will very, very fast need much medication CPR all extremely urgent. So WE do need your help
WE DESPERATELY NEED YOUR HELP
IF WE'RE TO SURVIVE TODAY OR TOMORROW. YES ANYTIME.
WILL YOU? HELP ME/US TO SURVIVE NOW.
I tell you - often we're not even looked at, helped in any way or form, sometimes not even by
the people in the know. See many of these symptoms; can come alone yet suddenly they will
all come together; in a now and we will never know. Its only if our looks - gets so completely
distorted by huge swellings and enormous spots we are helped. We are so easy subjected; to
mistrust; lies are told & retold in so many forms as this is not yet fully known. Without a care
for us. Mistrust because no proper statistics has been published for there is yet to be made a
proper official guidelines to all who treat us or come into contact with us. So we must or can
only relay on the people who know and who do care about us to be proper treated in our life.
I know we all have a responsibility in our own life - we can't if we are not told; the truth ever
WE NEED PROTECTION; NOT A DEFENSE SYSTEM
IT IS A SAD STATE OF AFFAIRS FOR ALL ON EARTH
If you too are unlucky and become anaphylactic reacting to one or more of all of these things.
Know we must learn from our own body and you must trust that our body; will teach you too
to become completely aware. For if our symptoms is not completely after a book; you can be
in great risk you'll not be diagnosed proper getting, wrong diagnosis is truly life threatening.
There's so much misinformation out there, not to frightening a public so much is left behind
hidden away most is plainly turned away by a blind eye or a fright they will be sued. Yet they
would never be sued in the first place if all where open to a truth and not just self protecting.
If workplaces looked after the staff; they have in their care, if they educated themself and all
their staff proper. If producers of all our stuff, took proper care; or used harmless materials.
So be aware - any workplace is seldom completely honest or respectable as they really don't
care for other than investors and the bottom lines as money still rules as any fear of loss will
increase a secrecy formula that they think - believe will protect them from any responsibility.
A wall of silence becomes the norm - no answers comes fort. They like you; if you work well.
Others matter not as they manipulate all truths by help from courts their power plays thrives
without an end. We're brushed aside through manipulating truths - pressed out by their fear.
This, has not yet been rectified from fear of what will - happen to themselves - so we're now
brushed under the carpet and put away from any 'radar warnings' so dismissed in this maize
we are just hidden away neglected on purpose overlooked so all faults; is covered up no end.
See this IS my truth this IS my fight and the extent of it too. Now I will LET IT GO I send it all
away from me --- no more harm
SAYING NO TO THE THINGS THAT HARM US
LEARNING TO SAY; NO' BY SEING WITHOUT ROSE'COLOURED GLASSES
'STAMPING' IT OUT AGAIN SO IT CAN BE SEEN FOR WHAT IT TRULY IS;
I GIVE ALL OF THIS
out to you; hopefully not to be wasted, as it must be taken serious, without a fear;
KNOW IT IS ALL; OK
FOR KNOW, ALL OF THIS HAS BECOME MY OWN
THEN, WITH THIS WISDOM; I HAVE CHANGED; MY LIFE TOO
FOR TO HEAL, I MUST TAKE IT ALL UP AGAIN AND TURN IT AROUND
FEEL THIS PAIN, AS IT NOW WILL BE TRANSMUTED, INTO MY DEEP HEALING
TRULY KNOW IN OUR HEARTS THAT WHICH IS DONE, WE CAN ALSO UNDO AGAIN
I CAN PROCEED TO LIVE
Yes I know I've written about it before, yet this is all so important to find this Healing I seek.
I have a willingness to be objective to search for new facts in my life - of the life everywhere
New openings to these old forms the ways we behave - a willingness to always tell my truth.
See as I listened to the people 'in the know' I was told only half truths, of it all. I lost my fate
for I suddenly became an' universal reactor' to everything - around me as all my sensitivities
spiraled out of control as I denied what was wrong with me just as 'these people in 'a know'.
These walls of disbelief as they think 'that we're in it for the money' they do not have a clue.
Money will not help us; money helps them, for any acknowledge of our plight, will do is just
make our - our family lives - easier when we need to change so many things around us see
money will not give us back our lives or our health or our contributions as a citizen - either
YET IT CAN PAY FOR THE HELP' WE NOW NEED TO LIVE
AS OUR DISABILITY' IS NOT AT ALL 'APPROVED'
DO A HELP; ALWAYS SPELL' PERMANENT'
DO PERMANENT MEAN DIS'ABILITY'
CAN WE OPEN UP TO THIS TRUTH OF
FOR NONE OF US WOULD LIKE TO WELCOME YOU TO OUR KIND OF LIFE.
AS THE GOOD LIFE IS NOW IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE, FOR IN ANY DAY
WE HAVE TO BE VERY AWARE, EVEN WHEN WE HAVE ALL
THESE MEDICATIONS THAT WILL 'WAKE UP A DEATH'.
THIS IS 'NOT A MAINSTREAM DIS-EASE' FOR IT
HITS DEEP INTO EVERYTHING WE DO IN
so we just do without in our day
we try to be positive not negative
AS WE'LL TURN AWAY FROM; WHAT IS A NORM FOR OTHERS
TO FIND A LITTLE BIT OF
AAHH BEAUTIFUL FRESH AIR
AND A HEALTHY FOOD SUPPLY, TO BE ABLE TO SURVIVE
Yet food allergy gives another picture
and each of us have different allergies to food
See if we "only have to avoid all the latex' gloves' or 'things' it would be easier to cope in life.
When the proteins in latex; also is recognized; by our cells' when we eat; we have problems
It's my food reactions that has been - most difficult to live with and to understand fully too
again I must remind you I unfortunately received the worst kind of - latex hypersensitivities
It came from a very specific work environment very different from many others in the world.
Yet as you will read on my site; everyone is at risk when using latex materials in their days too.
So a latex product material avoidance alone; can be lived with; unto foods kick in.
WHEN; WE GET SERIOUS SICK BY OUR FOOD ITS TERRIBLE
AS IT ALSO EASY, CAN BE FRIGHTENING, FOR A FAMILY TO WATCH.
KNOW AS MY FOOD REACTIONS GOT SORTED OUT I WAS CONSTANTLY SICK.
AND THEY FIRST STARTED THE SAME TIME I BECAME ANAPHYLAXIS
I GOT SO...SICK - VERY - VERY - VERY - SICK...WAS I NOW
AS THE REACTIONS COMES LIKE THIS ^ OR AS;
THE ONE SHOWN HEREUNDER; OR TOGETHER.
THE LATEX ALLERGY; YOU'LL FIND DO TAKE IT ALL IN,
FOR IT DO INCLUDE; BY WAY OF ALL THESE SAME PROTEINS; ALL OF THIS.
WHICH ONE; WAS WHICH? AND HOW COULD WE TRULY KNOW? HOW AND WHAT; TO AVOID.
FOR WHEN WE LIVE WITH LATEX ALLERGIES AND LATEX CROSS ALLERGIES
AND WE START TO REACT TO FOODS ITS DANGEROUS
FOR THEY ALL FELT SO MUCH ALIKE, SO MUCH THE SAME
THIS WAS TRULY BECOMING OUR BIG NIGHTMARE
SO I COULD EAT/LIVE WITHOUT REACTIONS
SAME, SYMPTOMS AND SAME; REACTIONS
AND THAT IS ONLY; BECAUSE THEY ARE THE SAME IN US.
ALL THIS MUST BE KNOWN TO BE HEALED
TO NEVER PLAY DICE WITH YOUR LIFE
KNOW IF YOU HAVE 'NORMAL' FOOD ALLERGIES, IT IS NOT A GIVEN YOU WILL REACT OR HAVE
SEVERE ALLERGIES; TO ALL THAT WE DO; WHO HAS LATEX ALLERGIES, FOR WE WERE SO EASY
SENSITIZED TO SO MANY, MANY OF THE DIFFERENT PROTEINS; ALL AT SAME TIMES, WHEN WE
WORKED; WITH THESE LATEX PRODUCTS; AND ESPECIALLY THESE POWDERED LATEX GLOVES.
PLEASE READ ABOUT ALL OF THESE LATEX PROTEINS ON MY LATEX PAGE: "TRUTH OF LATEX"
MOST PEOPLE WITH FOOD ALLERGY OR ANAPHYLAXIS IS ALLERGIC TO ONE OR TWO PROTEINS
WHEN WE HAVE; LATEX HYPERSENSITIVITIES WE CAN BE ALLERGIC TO MANY; THIS SAME TIME,
FOR WE WERE EXPOSED; DOUBLE UP
KNOW ALLERGY TO FOOD IS SERIOUS
THIS MUST BE REALIZED BE KNOWN, SO WE'RE NOT PLAYING DICE WITH OUR LIVES; ANY TIME.
YET, HOW CAN WE KNOW; WITHOUT RISKING OUR LIVES. SOMETIMES; IT WAS THE WAY FOODS
HAD BEEN TREATED; BY USING GLOVES; OR SOMETHING IN THE PROCEDURE; BY ADDING ALL
OTHER THINGS; NOT SHOWN; ON THE LABEL, AS IT NORMALLY DO NOT AFFECT, THE KNOWN
ALLERGENS OR ALLERGIC PEOPLE. OR IT COULD SIMPLY COME FROM THE WAY IT WAS PACKED.
ONLY BY A GREAT DETECTIVE WORK, WOULD WE EVER KNOW, ONLY BY ELIMINATING ONE' OR
THE OTHER AND TRY AGAIN; WOULD WE EVER KNOW; WHAT IT WAS THAT DID AFFECT US SO.
YES, THESE FACTS OF LATEX; IS SCARY.
WOULD YOU BE 'PANICKY' OR 'PARANOID' BY THESE FACTS
( just remember the touch/skin, the injection, and the inhalation routes )
BESIDES; THROUGH EATING ALL OF OUR PRECIOUS FOOD
NOW; IN REGARDS 'TO YOUR OWN FOODS' AND IN YOUR LIFE.
BE AWARE OF ANY SYMPTOMS
BE AWARE, AND DO TAKE GREAT CARE
YOU MUST LIVE AND EAT PROPER FOOD
THINK ABOUT; THESE DIGESTIVE JUICES
LET YOUR FOOD BE MODIFIED FROM OUR
ORIGINAL; THIS INTENDED WAY, WE EAT.
THEN YOU SHOULD BE SAFE, TO EAT ALL
TO ENJOY YOUR FOOD.
YOU MUST ALSO
KNOW THE SYMPTOMS; HOW IT ALL STARTS.
PLEASE READ ABOUT 'THE OAS'
ON MY LATEX PAGE;
which apple are the healthy one?
the one with a worm
or the one without
if the worm can eat it' without being sick or die so can you
unless you are allergic to apples
WE MUST EAT, YET WHAT WE EAT; WE ALSO MUST KNOW.
I DO AND I WILL URGE YOU; TO
KEEP EATING YOUR GREENS
AND ALL OF YOUR FOODS TOO
YET BE ALSO AWARE OF SYMPTOMS.
SO IF YOU GET SYMPTOMS FROM EATING.
WRITE DOWN THESE SYMPTOMS AND THEN
DO SEE A SPECIALIST DO GET IT CHECKED OUT
FOR ALLERGIES ARE INCREASING, ALL OVER THE EARTH, IS IT MARCHING FORT WITH SPEED.
PEOPLE ARE AT GREAT RISK i.e. IF YOU HAVE A FAMILY HISTORY, OF ALLERGIES OR ASTHMA.
AS WE ARE ALL RESPONSIBLE; FOR WHAT IS DONE TO US, AND WHAT WE DO TO OUR SELVES.
IT'S ALWAYS HARD WORK
SOMETHING WE MUST SEE.
NOW; DID YOU KNOW THAT UP TO: 45 MILLION PEOPLE, IN AMERICA LIVE WITH; A RISK; OF
ANAPHYLAXIS THE STATISTIC CAN BE FOUND HERE:II_statistics_2_29_08.pdf.Adobe Reader
NO NOT ONLY TO LATEX AS EVERYTHING CAN GIVE US ANAPHYLAXIS; FOURTYFIVE MILLION
AND THAT; IS ONLY AMERICA, DO YOU THINK; WE HAVE GOT A REALLY BIG PROBLEM NOW?
WHAT? HOW DID THIS JUST HAPPEN ?
other similarities and differences
THE BREATH AND THE BEAT IN US
^ THE HEART ATTACK ^
^ AND THE ANAPHYLXIS SYMPTOMS ^
IN THIS WORLD OF OURS
YET IT IS; AN OVER-REACTION OF CELLS; THAT WILL NOT RECEIVE; ANY FORM OF ALTERED
STUFF, BE IT; POLLUTION, TOXINS, VIRUSES, FUNGUS, GERMS, PARASITES AND CARCINOGEN
IT IS EVERY WHERE NOW, YET STILL; MANY PEOPLE ARE HEALTHY, PLEASE STAY' THAT WAY'
FOR IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THOUGHT, THAT OUR BODIES LOOK OUT FOR US; IT'S HEALTH.
CELLS ALIVE; AND CARE
PLEASE DO NOT LET IT SPREAD TO YOU OR YOUR SURROUNDINGS
SO WHAT IS ALLERGIES??
ARE THEY NOT JUST SAVING US FROM HARM FOR THE SCIENTIST ARE TRYING TO INCREASE
THE IMMUNE RESPONSE IN SO MANY SICK PEOPLE GET THEIR BODIES TO HEAL THEMSELVES.
JUST FOR THESE SICK PEOPLE TRYING TO GET THEIR OWN IMMUNE SYSTEM TO HEAL THEM?
SO ARE WE NOW; IN REALITY; REALLY HEALTHY, JUST WITH 'A HYSTERICAL' IMMUNE SYSTEM
SO; IS IT NOW POSSIBLE?
TO DO ALL; DIFFERENT,
POSSIBLE TO HEAL MYSELF OF THIS? MY BODY KICKS UP SUCH A FUSS IF I GET A VIRUS, IT GET
COMPLETE HYSTERICAL OR IT ENCOUNTER ANY ALLERGEN; TO THE POINT OF SHUTTING ME
DOWN, IT WILL IRRITATE MY SKIN NO END; WITH SWELLINGS AND SORES; IF I TOUCH THINGS.
YET ITS JUST TRYING TO BE GOOD TO ME TO HEAL ME, OR LOOK OUT FOR ME HEALTH WISE.
CAN I; DO SOMETHING?
TO CALM MY CELLS DOWN
IF; MY IMMUNE SYSTEM IS HEALTHY, AS IT WILL NOT; LET ME GET SICK, IT WILL NOT ACCEPT
ANY VIRUS, BACTERIA OR OTHER FORM FOR ALTERED STATUS. SO TRULY; I AM ALREADY SO
HEALTHY, AS I EVER CAN BE. IT HAS JUST BECOME A LITTLE TOO AWAKE, SO I WILL CALM IT;
IS THAT THE SECRET, THAT I JUST NEED TO CALM MY CELL AND BODY COMPLETELY DOWN?
BY AN 'INNER WILL' I WILL
CALM IT ALL DOWN NOW
YES YOU CAN SAY IT CAN'T BE DONE AND I DO NOT YET KNOW IF IT CAN BE DONE, BUT I AM
GOING; TO GIVE IT A TRY. I KNOW WE CAN DO A LOT, WITH OUR ATTITUDES; WITH ANY, ALL
OF OUR THOUGHTS THEY DO ALWAYS MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN OUR LIVES. SO CAN WE TO OUR
BODY TOO TRULY CHANGE ITS WAYS? CAN WE TRULY HEAL' OURSELVES BY THESE THOUGHTS
CELLS & MOLECULES TOO
I'LL RE-WORK AND RE-FORM
ALL THIS IS NOW TO BE SEEN AS ALREADY HEALED, LEARNED FROM AND TURNED AROUND.
HOLDING; THE HEALING RAY
IN, ANY NOW, I WILL; DO IT
FROM THE INSIDE AND OUT YET ALSO FROM THE OUTSIDE IN
TO HEAL OR HEALING; BODY & SOUL
WHAT IS A TRUE HEALING? WHAT IS IT WE EXPECT BY BEING HEALED, CAN WE HEAL A BODY ?
HEALING THE BODY, WITHOUT ALSO HEALING THE MIND THE SPIRIT AND OUR SOUL?
WILL WE BE ABEL TO STEP OUT AND TO FEEL FREE IF WE DO NOT HEAL EVERYTHING ?
IF WE JUST HEAL A BODY, WILL THE OLD ANGER LINGER, WILL AN UNFINISHED THOUGHT STAY'
AS ITS STILL ALL; SO UN-HEALED
BLACK OR WHITE YET WE CAN LEARN TO DANCE IN THE RAIN
THE DANCE ABOUT LIFE AND DEATH WITH ANAPHYLAXIS
WHERE A TIME BECOMES NONE EXISTENT
TRYING TO STOP THESE SHOCKS
THIS IS ALL; TOO MUCH
IS IT POSSIBLE FOR THIS NOT TO BECOME CHRONIC IN US.
CAN WE FIND OUR BALANCE OUR HEALTH?
When we get anaphylaxis, from so many things around us, when we have to deal with
a life threatening circumstance; none stop in our lives. Do/can we mitigate this cyclus.
How do we make sure that IT it self don't become the dis-ease in us too?
To live; in anxiety is very debilitating, it promotes so much stress. Yet we live & we do'
survive on this stress that is coming with our anaphylaxis it actually helps us to survive.
Yet we must continuously maintain a balance in our body and in the soul.
We release adrenalin in these situation, the fight or fear comes up in us instantly which
we can use to mitigate, it helps our bodies yet most often we do need more adrenalin.
So this anxiety has to be dealt with at the same time as all our symptoms.
Very, very scary symptoms which come on fast; going through; our whole body; yes it
certainly are felt; it can be seen & it can be measured in breath, heart, stomach, skin.
We have to be so careful; not to make this worse; for ourselves every day.
If we then suffer from the type IV Cell mediated allergy too we do/have even more of
all of the (yet) different symptoms; not as aggressive, they are painful and drawn out.
So often it is constant pains, or heightened state of awareness; we suffer.
We withdraw naturally from all this that affect our bodies none stop, which again can
look as we're phobic or have social anxiety disorders, yet we get extra adrenalin/inj.
We can become obsessive and compulsive in our daily lives of a necessity.
So we must somehow learn to adapt to set us free of the roller coaster that comes to
us so easily, so suddenly and quickly disappear or linger forever, in the background.
Become aware of the under and over production of all our adrenaline too.
When we have many; big anaphylaxis; it really makes a mess of our lives, as we get
into these huge imbalances; on so many of our hormone levels it do shift everything.
These exhaust periods, can become, as over productions, as we 're-act'
We can get fears, anger, very upset, we cry and we often feel; exhausted & wt. gain
unable to cope in our days with apathy/depression low self-esteem poor circulation.
It will make other hormones respond; in us; in many different ways too.
An over productive mode> change in breathing patterns wt. loss digestions or Bt ^
our blood sugar levels, heart rate changes feeling terror, migraines, 'flu symptoms'
This too, will make it much harder, for people to understand or help us.
See too much adrenaline; all the time, give us symptoms.Too little adrenaline, gives
also symptoms & too much or too little histamine muck us all up too. Find A Balance.
Can you see how close all these symptoms comes allergy symptoms too.
All these things mess with our brains, i.e confusions black outs with blood' reactions
then incredible breathing problems all do affect a heart & the rest of our body' too.
I am, I will do; all I can to change this around in me, as this is not a life.
Our thoughts can readjust many things in us both ways, we can by thoughts make it
much worse. Yet to learn to control ones own thoughts' when 'the horse have bolted'
Is very, very difficult and very, very hard work as we do loose all control.
We can try 'to tell our body that the food we eat will not affect us'; but its on the cell
level we react from a trillion cells at a same time its not the same a burning a finger.
NOT ENOUGH; IS TOO LITTLE, TOO.
WE MUST FIND THE BALANCE NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT IT IS
TOO MUCH AND TOO LITTLE; OF OF EVERYTHING; MAKES SICK
OR MAKE US ALL GO WILD'?
THEREFORE NOW, I WILL BE
SEEING THINGS AND TURNING IT ALL THE WAY AROUND
YES SMILE FOR
I believe my true healing will come from the inside and out just as - sickness came from the
outside and in. Then when its realized and all the quick fix ways; is outlived we come to the
'nittygritty' of ones own healing. Realizing things, often are more complicated when there is
nothing needs to be cut out, having chemo or rays, as even our medication' will only relieve.
We/I will have to heal from the cellular level to Find Back to his balance point I've left behind.
Realizing too that my body is only overprotecting me in my dangerous kind of allergic state it
has gone overboard hysterical; always on a high alert; to catch anything; that comes too near.
The starting point then; must be to calm down all these cells. Done slowly - with a great care
'give the cells, give them something we already can do, and add a tiny little bit more of some
of the stuff it always is on a look out for. Yet this is incredible difficult its so very dangerous.
As this is not a sickness as such, its an unbalance right down on a molecule level, these cells
talking point our cells health trigger point the ones that decide together with our genes if we
get cancer, viruses or a thousand other sicknesses. These cells and these molecules 'decided'
that they wouldn't let anything in to change the health'status that I or other people was/is in.
Going down in my own body with my mind spirit my soul from the spiritual side of me, heals.
As everything is interconnected in this world as is the whole universe too. All is so very, very
balanced, chemicals that all a physical worlds are made up from is anywhere in this universe,
inside us all everything we eat and is near nothing but nothing it not made by atoms or cells.
How, can I go back down; to this level, other than from my spirit being - can/will I change it
as all - also physical - can be changed by the spark the wish the power of thought it creates
ANOTHER WAY OF A HEALING POWER
IN THESE GREAT WEBS OF ALL; IN LIFE
LEARNING US TO SEE ALL THESE DIVINE LINES AND CONNECTIONS
SPREADING OUT THROUGHOUT IT ALL
LIGHT I'S ENERGY, LIGHT MAKE DARKNESS
DISAPPEAR, LIGHT IS NOTHING WE CAN HOLD ONTO YET WE CAN
SHINE IT OUT, OVER EVERY THING IN LIFE
SHOW US NOW THIS SO BRIGHT INNER LIGHT
LEARNING US TOO; ALL WE DO; COMES BACK TO US AS; A-GAIN
YET ONLY' IF WE CAN TURN IT; INTO A LOVE
So as I see things in harmless ways as part of Divine in all. I also see all the learning we must
go through as the real force of any evolution No Matter where in a line, we stand. All that we
do to each other to learn to come back - be more of this connection that runs through us all
to all. I can also see the evolution how it has this red tread running through just like a divine
power runs permanently though all. There's no life existing anywhere in the universe that do
not contain - a part of something else. All works together, even being pulled apart, by force
by thought by will or by a rhythm of the seas of movement in everything Nothing is Nothing.
What's Healing then its to come fully into awareness it is to choose it is to Know exactly how
to choose the Love - Care the Peace and a Harmlessness, in all ones dealings with all others;
other parts of ones connections to all. Yet it's here learning comes in; the balancing of it all
its so difficult as we harness and contain so many parts; of former hurts, hurting words and
thoughts of these hurting deeds our world is full of. Its to become who we wish others to be.
No if No -But, No excuse can be good enough it is to stand up for ones will to see the Good'.
To be able to say No, to be able to say Yes; to change ones meaning - in ones own evolution.
Blessings, healing into a balance is to walk ones thoughts, and stand by ones deeds, as ones
own stepping stones on the path it will go on forever; its to acknowledge, that its not always
a straight road. Or we can if we're not careful run around in circles going nowhere, and then
unable to learn from former mis'takes from former decisions of how it all came about by our
own will to take a certain road at a certain time in life. Its to learn - then to let it go; a-gain.
Blessings do comes fort when we realize its us who are responsible for our own life & deeds.
Blessings comes by a will to step up to stand on ones own step to be who I can stand by too
I AM A-GAIN; COMING
INTO; ALL MY OWN TRUTHS
AS I LISTEN; ONLY TO MY HEART
NOT JUST BY THE WILL OF ALL LEARNED.
I TELL ALWAYS, WHAT ONLY LIFT UP AND HEAL
YET I WILL ALWAYS, TELL IT ALL, AS I SEE IT, AND CALL
IT BY ANY NAME I FEEL CAN WAKE>UP<WAKE; IT ALL AGAIN.
I'LL BE AND DO TO OTHERS, AS I WANT THEM TO BE, DO TO ME
EVEN IF IT MOMENTARILY HURTS A BIT
AS THE ALL SAYING GOES; NO HURT NO GAIN EITHER
I CAN TRULY SAY; THAT IS CORRECT, AS THAT IS WHAT I LIVE
AND NOW I AM
WORKING WITHOUT REST LIKE ALL THESE CELLS AND MOLECULES IN ME
AS I SEE IT AS MY INTER-(WEB)-NET, IT'S A VERY FINE SAFETY NET TOO
THIS WEB; IT IS OF UNLIMITED LOVE; TO ALL
STARTING; WITH DAY ONE, OF MY NEW LIFE
FROM A DARKNESS INTO LIGHT
Gone; are this darkness, the blaming, and the tears of before, gone are the I bleak outlook for
a future of none, Gone and Blessed as I Thank it for all that I have learned I send it away Now.
Trusting like a child again so I can live and I can Heal trusting myself knowing that I can cope
Knowing I'm blessed that I have received wisdom and knowledge about myself to grow to Be.
As Inner and Outer Light Blast Through My Being I AM who I Am - I Live With It All, in a New
Inner Peace a calmness I missed for too long - a newness and a wonder of what time brings.
A New Life is for me, because I have shifted a gear, I have changed and I have accepted Now
a different outlook a different way of being. No more fights with anyone For I Am, In Charge
Seeing things again in full color feeling more than an inner outer pain reaching out to touch
to feel and to hug; a new way of being opening to a true beauty of all of life not just any life.
Abel to look further and deep into my surroundings not just what is around me in every now
wanting to become this sensitivity in me wanting a richness it gives to my life yet its calmed
Feeling new inner wealth a richness of spiritual power, an acceptance that I can have and live
even a restricted life if that was what my soul wanted me to experience to evolve further as I.
Letting the sunshine in, letting the power of life penetrate everything in my 'now'ment' to live
with this knowledge - that everything is more so much more than we perceive it to be in life.
Yes, I can see I DO have a future too
LETTING IT BE MORE OF ALL YET SO SIMPLIFIED AND PEACEFUL
SEEING THROUGH IT ALL, SEE IT THROUGH OUR SOULS EYE, AS IT CHANGES IT ALL
CHOOSING A DIFFERENT PICTURE; OF OUR LIFE; SEE ANOTHER DOORWAY IN LIFE
SEE IT ALL THE WAY AROUND
THIS WAS MY AWAKENING
IT IS MY BLESSING IN LIFE
TO LOVE AND BE LOVED
AS LOVE CAN SURVIVE IT ALL
SO I WILL NOW SHARE WITH YOU TOO
'MY PRAYER'; IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT; I RECEIVED
ONE DAY, IN ONE OF MY DAILY MEDITATIONS
IT HELPS ME, NO END;
TO LET GO, ACCEPT & ENJOY MY LIFE ANEW
I AM FILLED WITH A HUGE GRATITUDE THAT I HAVE BEEN ALLOWED BY
THESE VERY DEEP PHYSICAL PAINFUL AND AT TIMES VERY, VERY SCARY
EXPERIENCES, TO COME INTO A NEW; PEACEFUL EXISTENCE AND LOVE.
THESE EXPERIENCES HAVE HELPED ME OPEN TO A STUDY OF SO MUCH
IN THIS WORLD WE LIVE IN. FROM THE NECESSITY FIRST TO SURVIVE AS
THESE ALLERGIES TOOK HOLD OF MY LIFE THEN TO FIND AN OUTLET A
KIND OF INNER FREEDOM, NOT FEELING SO HURT, SO FRIGHTENED, AS
I HAD; NO LIFE AT ALL. SO I COULD LEARN TO LIVE WITH; WHAT I HAVE
BEEN GIVEN AS MY LOT IN LIFE HAVE ANY KIND OF LIFE WITH A FUTURE.
...TO BE CONTINUED...
AS I'M STILL HEALING MY BODY, MIND, SPIRIT AND SOUL
...SO, SOME DAY SOON; SOON I WILL BE BACK...
AS I TRULY TURN BOTH WAYS
HEALED ALL THE WAY AROUND
FOR I WILL NOT BE AFRAID OF MY BODY'S REACTIONS ANYMORE.
I WILL LET MY CELLS BE AWARE YET ALWAYS CALM THEM DOWN
I WILL DANCE IN MY MIND TO CELEBRATE THAT I HAVE HEALED
THE HURT AND THE FORMER PAIN
IN MY'SELF & IN; MY OWN WORLD, ALL IS JUST FINE
JUST BECAUSE, I KNOW ALL IS - AS IT SHOULD BE, WHERE; I AM.
FOR ALL I GOT; MADE ME WHOLE!
AS I SEE BEHIND IT ALL; WITH THIS INNER CHILDS' EYE'
PLEASE BE OPEN AND QUESTION EVERYTHING AROUND YOU!
FOR A HEALING JOURNEY; IS TRULY; 'A WONDEROUS JOURNEY'
OF OUR SO FLEETING INNER SOUL; TO LEARN TO FLY FREE
'FROM SPLIT OPEN AND BROKEN'; TO HEALING IT ALL TOO
TO SEEING A NEW BALANCE; IN ALL LIVING THINGS
When we are healing, we become awake, we start to feel everything in a different way, we can
suddenly seeing all around us when we let the old ways go. 'See its easy' to be happy to live a
joyful life when things are easy in life - we just dance along without much care, for tomorrow.
FROM ALL THE OLD INTO THIS NEW
BLESSING, AS A NEW LIGHT BREAKS THROUGH
Things then come to us out of the blue to up'vake to wake us up to move behind what we did
without thought of tomorrow - without we go deep into our souls light into the heart of it all.
We are not here to just get along we're here on a journey to evolve in our own eternal spirit/I
KNOWING ALL FREEDOM; COMES FROM INSIDE
YET, I FORGOT TO DREAM, TO EVOLVE
Dreaming creates in us thoughts make us move, decisions to do to make, to be or to become
what we never thought we could be could do or become in life not by fright its first when that
leaves us we can move; yet for that to leave we must decide - must will ourselves to reach up
'A MUST' BEFORE WE SINK, BEFORE WE DIE
AS I JUST STOOD SO STILL, IN MY LIFE
Yet I was NOT still at all I was busy very, very busy, with my life my love my family, earning a
living; I do my bit everywhere, conform to the norms, and to live up to all the pressures from
everywhere saying: Yes to this and to that I stood still in my soul I - forgot; to grow the I/me
SO I GOT MY OWN, RUDE AWAKENING
FINDING NEW EQUILIBRIUM
I HAD TO TURN IT ALL AROUND
When we get lazy things stop moving us along. We'll get a loving push to move along; on our
chosen path first we hear a tiny whisper if that is being ignored we'll get more and more until
we start to move. Yes first we get numb then sad - then why me? comes up until we see it all.
EMERGING; FROM ALL DARKNESS
AS A DIFFERENT ROAD; WAS SHOWN
See it in a different way see that we are OK, see that things, can move on again, if we are not
giving up, on the way trowing in the towel; say enough is enough, and lay down to die, If we
move behind this point we can again start to live we can create a new life with all we now live
I DID NOT DIE I HAD JUST; STOOD STILL
I SLEPT FOR SUCH A LONG TIME ON EARTH
Change in lives will never stop as it's through these changes we truly live it is trough the hard
times we decide, to become to create a different life for ourselves it's through a change of life
we wake up we stand up - we see with different eyes - on all that was before us in life seeing.
I CAN NOW SEE IT ALL; THROUGH MY OWN SOULS EYE
I AWOKE; TO SEE A NEW CLEAR PATTERN EMERGE
No'thing was ever broken in me nothing needed to be fixed my body had moved and my soul
needed to move with it healing just comes naturally when we move ourselves away from what
has hold us caught has hold us frozen in life time hold us frightened to loose ourselves again
FOR; ALL IS GAINED, ALL IS PERFECT; WHEN WE KNOW
IF WE'RE SEEING; JUST DIFFERENT PATTERNS OF LIFE, AND THEN WE CHOOSE A-GAIN
THE FIRST CHANGE; IS DIFFICULT
YET LATER EVERYTHING BECOMES MUCH, MUCH MORE, MORE OF EVERYTHING; IN LIFE
AND FIRST THEN DID I FEEL AWAKE